Its back for me. Do you not see it gevura?

Hey I'm not the only one still awake? ??? ;D

right now i don't see it. It seems to come and go at random.

Funny, i refreshed the page after sending the last post, and the picture showed up!

I think it may be that you uploaded a very large picture and the system needs to scale it down, and times out doing so. If that is the case try scaling it down first then re-uploading it.

So here we are in between the hebrew and english dates of when i started this process a year ago. Baruch Hashem we are clean for a year!
Alot has happened during this year.
Although i havent been posting lately, i felt the need to try and summarize what i've learned and gained from the forum, site, and process, if not for anyone else then at least for myself.
We'll try to post a little bit each day as we approach day 365 on the charts.

Gesher Tzar Meod wrote on 05 Feb 2012 22:05:

So we'll get to hear more from you?
Great News!

hi friend!
nice to see you again

ZemirosShabbos wrote on 06 Feb 2012 21:12:

thank you
nice to be seen
which brings me to my first point
I think the strongest aspect of posting here is being seen, i.e. getting the problem out of the closet. I walked around for about 30 years with this deep dark secret that was killing me. Coming out in the open got the monster down to a size where he was attackable.
It doesnt solve anything, but it definitely chips away at the stranglehold that the YH has on us. I know that others take issue with remaining anonymous, and perhaps its a difference between those who need SA or the 12 steps and those who don't. But I know that it worked for me.
Zem you're on of the few who were with me from the start who are still here. Just wanted to say thank you.

Gevaldig Gesher, a whole year clean and sober! We'd love to have you on the Forum more often.

Thanks BB
I'd like to be around more often
it just doesnt seem to have the same appeal that it used to have
for me that is

Gesher Tzar Meod wrote on 07 Feb 2012 11:32:

Why? there's still good cholint, and a muffin or two occasionally..

Hey TZ !
Never really got into the cholint and stuff here
dont know why, it just never spoke to me

Gesher, there's room on the narrow bridge for a cholint-muffin or two
whatever you do keep on trucking

Gesher Tzar Meod wrote on 07 Feb 2012 12:00:


No, you're not supposed to get into the cholint, the cholint is supposed to get stuffed into you. And it speaks to you better that way.  :D

Oh, and it's great to see you around again, and Mazel Tov on a WHOLE YEAR!!!!

KOMT!!!!

Gevura!

Thanks guys.
Moving on in my trip thru GYE memory lane...
The chart was gevaldig. I realize that I probably used it a bit differently than others. For me once I was on the chart there was no turning back, no falling. The prevalent attitude among the chevra seemed to me a bit looser with this concept. And again I assume it was a difference between people following the 12 steps and those who weren't. For others the chart was more of a general picture of how much you've accomplished despite your falls. For me it was do or die! Any time I felt the urge to act out I had to consider what i was going to post afterwards and the fact that i would have to start the chart over from 0.
I know that the focus is one day at a time, but I had to keep in mind that no matter what i wasnt going back to where i was... EVER!

Gesher Tzar Meod wrote on 08 Feb 2012 19:39:

i also had that attitude with the chart and that's how i got to like 60 something in the beginning, but if it's an addiction "do or die" has to be real...