And I only just now saw Joey Haber's Vayimaen video from Friday! Promise! 

diamondwithaflaw wrote on 21 Jul 2025 16:03:

Lol I listened to it right before reading your post. Probably the best Vayimaen yet.

Great point about overthinking. I've been accused of philosophizin' a time or two. It's a hard habit to stop.

Quick check in.

Logged into GYE for a minute this morning at work before anyone else came in. Only to be surprised by my boss's daughter coming up behind me - she happened to come meet him at the office this morning. Very very (very!) grateful it was GYE and not porn. Still hoping she didn't get a good look at the screen (and also that she won't tell her dad I wasn't working . . .)

About a week and a half clean from porn. I'm grateful about that. The eye-groping isn't going well. Trying to just do it, but, well, I'm having trouble doing it. Missing motivation. Relatedly, having trouble finding the time and yishuv ha'daas to get into the spirit of the season. Busy remainder of the week ahead and hoping it'll be clean. 

chosemyshem wrote on 22 Jul 2025 22:46:

Question about the eye-groping and your lack of motivation.
 Is it that you have a desire to ogle and catch a deep eyeful of every lustful sight and you can’t find internal motivation and desire to want to live without that enjoyment? Or is it that you feel compelled by the sights and urges and habitual ogling when in the moment, and though you dislike that, you’re having difficulty to muster up enough motivation to summon the energy to try to deal with it ? 
Im not sure that this question makes sense, or that it’s even an either/or. Maybe a worthwhile question, though. 

Either way, thinking about you.
Probably worth focussing on your wins. 
And, of course, here’s a warm hand, 
Chaim 

ps, sorry it didn’t end up working out the other day.