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Re: My journey 23 Oct 2023 03:14 #402671

  • eyes
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Dear Brother,
Please take it slow and dont look at day 90. It may seem too far off.
Advise from the oldies here (not me), please take one day at a time. Dont look at my day counter because I stopped that. Take one day at a time. When you wake up in the morning ask Hashem for today not 90.

Dov once wrote.
Asking for HaSHeM on RH for a clean year is not  agood idea, but rather ask HaSHeM for today and IYH Ubez"H the year will also be good. I do this exercise daily, especially when things get hard. Just today. What was yesterday, or tomorrow is out of my league. Today I will IYH do my best.
Last Edit: 23 Oct 2023 03:16 by eyes.

Re: My journey 23 Oct 2023 09:22 #402676

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Can only echo what others have written.. keep going and focus on today. I did a similar thing on shabbos as i was thinking to myself, this time next week will i still be clean? but that is the wrong sentiment.. just take each day as it comes.

Wishing you much hatzlacha

Re: My journey 23 Oct 2023 11:42 #402680

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Your 100 % right. Thanks for the reminder, I do tend to get caught up in the whole streak thing. 
"If we didn't have to face any challenges than we wouldn't be any better than a rock"

Re: My journey 05 Aug 2024 03:58 #418463

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Hi everyone,

Long time no posting, I say this everytime, lol. I'm getting ready for battle, so I decided I'm going to post here for accountability. I'm going on vacation and with Hashems help I'll be able to pass the many tests that I'll face.

One step I decided to take is that bl"n I'm not going to turn on the TV once while in the hotel room if by myself.

Today I had major success story, I had a laptop that was not filtered and I started heading in the wrong direction and with Hashems help I just slammed it shut and attempted to put on a filter, but it was after hours so I wasn't able to. I was fighting back and forth untill I said no, and I decided that if I open laptop before it gets filtered I'm going to give a huge sum of money to tzedaka, BH we still haven't opened laptop.

Wishing everyone all the best
"If we didn't have to face any challenges than we wouldn't be any better than a rock"

Re: My journey 11 Aug 2024 06:48 #418864

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Hi everyone, 

Unfortunately I just had a fall, but I'm not going to give up. I decided I'm going to do the 90 day challenge again, today is day 1. With Hashems help we're going to fight one day at a time.
"If we didn't have to face any challenges than we wouldn't be any better than a rock"

Re: My journey 11 Aug 2024 08:21 #418866

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I just read through your thread and I love you're attitude...
שבע יפול צדיק וקם - 
you're an inspiration to us all! 

Just a quick thought, something I noticed about myself regarding unfiltered devices:
Over the past 3 months I had numerous times an unfiltered device, at least for 10 of the 90 days... and I BH managed not to watch any Shmutz. Sometimes I specially left it unfiltered for a few days to be מקיים what the רמב”ם writes that real תשובה is when you have the opportunity again to fall the same way as when you sinned but withstand the Nisayon... However, I regret it, as I believe that it still had a negative effect on me and made my Nisayon harder even once the device got filtered.
Just like יעקב, even though he won the fight with the שר of עשיו, still he came out of the fight with a limp...
You never know, maybe the unfiltered device you had the other day led to yesterday's fall... (even though you overcame the temptation of unfiltered Internet..)
A reliable, good filter is key to success. 

Wishing you tremendous Hatzlacha!!
Looking forward to hearing updates...
My favourite resources:
1. "זאת בריתי". hebrewbooks.org/56572 (PM me for a sharper version)
2. "שערי גדולה". hebrewbooks.org/48344
3.  guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation

My journey: Emunah struggles, Celebrating a fall, I'm fed up(main thread), I'm drowning, Tips for Shmiras Einayim.
Last Edit: 11 Aug 2024 08:39 by upanddown. Reason: Rephrasing

Re: My journey 11 Aug 2024 14:11 #418884

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Thabk you, I appreciate your support. 
"If we didn't have to face any challenges than we wouldn't be any better than a rock"

Re: My journey 11 Aug 2024 15:00 #418890

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I just noticed this thread, amazing stuff!

I just want to share that I joined about 95 days ago and through a daily accountability program with Hashem Help Me (michelgelner@gmail.com) I've stayed clean since I joined GYE. Would you consider reaching out to him? It can be a life changer.....

Also, staying in touch with the GYE community is super helpful too. We want to hear from you regularly, not just after a fall!!!!

Stay in touch!

With brotherly love form the trenches,
Muttel
We're in this struggle together; feel free to reach out! 
Muttel15@gmail.com

Feel free to call/text! (908) 251-9590 (google)

Check out my thread here: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/413043-My-ENTIRE-story#413043

Re: My journey 12 Aug 2024 03:00 #418949

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Thank you for your thoughts, I actually reached out to him a while back, but lost in touch. Your right, I should really start posting everyday that's what I keep telling myself.

Day 1. I had my filter block whichever website I've previously fallen from. I'm trying to not be down about my fall. I'm telling myself that I only lost 1 out of hundreds of fights. I'm still winning the battle. 

I'm working on trying to have the right perspective, I read the battle of the generation every night, It's a must read. it's what keeps me going.

With Hashems we'll keep fighting one test at a time. Wishing everyone much success in fighting the battle of the generation.
"If we didn't have to face any challenges than we wouldn't be any better than a rock"
Last Edit: 12 Aug 2024 03:01 by iffalldowngetup.
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