Zedj,

You are one of the most inspirational people that I know. I follow your short, yet sincere posts - the way I track my own children's endeavors.

Hashem is proud of you, but that is an understatement. I  have no doubt that there is an entire section in shamayim that is dedicated - just to watching you and rooting you on. Picture an entire "room of ruchniyus beings" gathered for the sole purpose of enjoying and schepping nachas from you (It's like a spiritual Super Bowl party. Oy L'havdil, my apologies...)

Anyway, keep making us proud. And let us know the significance of your most unique name (but not if it reveals anything, of course...)

Good Shabbos, dear brother.

Ish MiGrodno wrote on 01 Jan 2021 20:40:



Thank you very much!
It means alot.
Thank you for following my posts
It feels good to know someone is keeping their eye on me

About my username: when I signed up to GYE I had no iota of what to expect. I mean I knew I needed help of sorts but besides that, nadda.
So I used my little known alias name "zedj" .
So nothing special Sorry to disappoint!

40 days clean

B"H shabbos was nice...
Alot of unnecessary thoughts kept popping into my head today..I guess it's an extra special shabbos challenge.
To be fair, some of the environments (not all) I was in we're not the most conducive.
I guess you can say it was similar to walking  down the street and I happen to see something that caused  thoughts.

Wishing you all a great week!
A gut voch

42 days clean

I keep amazing myself. Every day is like breathing fresh air!
B"H I'm moving forward.

I had a Machshiva zora...
Wouldn't it nice to be free? Similar to the freedom of: running freely through a feild, the sun setting with a colorful sky while the light breeze hits my face as I run....

I'm longing for this day to become reality.


I'm definitely not "free". I have to keep reminding myself to take ONE DAY AT A TIME
I might sometimes be over confident...
I have to be careful.

These days I've been kept busy BH so not alot of time for urges or fantasy.
(I'm not worried...they know how to come back)

Last night I came across one of the most scariest threads I've ever read.
Bh it had a good ending.
These challenges can pull people down....it really scares me.
Heaven forbid if I wouldve fallen just one step lower before joining GYE...I may have never made it here.
I can't thank you guys anough

43 days clean


Learning could've been so much better today. There was just no flow..
Anyways tomorrow is another day.


I know it has definitely been mentioned before but lately I've noticed flutters of nostalgia come up from time to time.

Sort of like a empty feeling/missing something. Unfortunately I didn't have anough time to study my discovery but I'm sharing.

I'm not sure how to define it...maybe it's a real feeling of emptiness or perhaps I'm not getting the thrill I "need"?

All the best!

No big, buddy. Your lustful routines and the ensuing (albeit short-lived) thrills created a relationship of sorts. While this escape is now far surpassed by the euphoria of self control, it nonetheless cannot be duplicated. Withdrawal is withdrawal. So my dearest zedj, why don't you articulate (aloud! into a mirror!) "Although I am suffering from withdrawal, I embrace the challenge and I am up to task to killin' it."

You're the man!

44 days clean

Thank you @IshMiGrodno!
I really got to look in the mirror more often.

B"H today was better learning.

Takeing it one day at a time.

Wishing you guys well!

Big Mazel tov Zedj for half the journey! To many more milestones!

45 days clean

Thank you @youngster for the shout out!


At the halfway point.
I hope to stay strong.
I hope I will be steadfast.
I hope I will not falter at the wake of strength!


Hashem (our father in heaven),
Thank you for giving me  another chance for a first impression.
Thank you for letting me be directed to this wonderful place, to let me grow and strive to be a better person.

Zedj wrote on 08 Jan 2021 06:42:

Mazeltov on halfway to 90. Keep it up 

47 days clean

BH shabbos was nice.
I had some unpleasant dreams but will spare the details.
There seems to be something about Friday night...I don't really know why.

Otherwise all was good


Wishing you all a gut voch!

49 days clean


BH I'm clean!

Tomorrow morning I'll be be having a test on Baser Vecholov....so off to bed I go.

BEZH tommorow you all can call me "Rab"
With Hashems help all will be good.

Wishing you all well

Seeing what a hard worker you are, I'm positive you will do well!
Hatzlocho Rabo,
Excellence

Oh, btw, in my eyes you already are a 'Rabbi'. Think from tomorrow I will be calling you הגאון הצדיק ראש כל בני הגולה!

Zedj wrote on 12 Jan 2021 05:09:

Hatzlocha on your Bechina! As you just went through a Sefiras haomer(49 days) there is no doubt that you are now really ready to mekabel the Torah and do amazing on your test.

Zedj wrote on 12 Jan 2021 05:09:

When you will be a Rav and the yetzer tries to entice you to sin, tell him "I will NOT do that!" Make it such a strong "not", it will be a "not bar not!"

Hatzlacha!