Day 42
6 weeks
Wow, that's passed quickly. Very grateful to HKB"H for bringing me this far, and for being a lot less though than expected, and especially grateful for the days when I didn't even have any thoughts on these inyanim, on those days you feel like any other regular guy.
Today in yeshiva was a bit shvach, probably because I was up late. Couldn't focus so well during shiur and also during night seder. Also felt a bit down tonight and lonely. Made some phone calls to family but still feeling a bit depressed. Been a weird mix of emotions over the last few days. BH didn't feel an urge to act out, but I can see myself looking for an escape from reality if I'm not careful.