Day 35
5 weeks!
A straightforward day bH, not much to report. Was a bit stressed early but I'm feeling back to normal now. We have a program tonight in yeshiva, so writing this earlier than normal, don't think I'll have an opportunity later

Keep on racing!

Day 36

Hope you all fast well, and have a great shabbos!
Not much to say about today bH. Just taking it slow while I'm fasting

Hey LookingToImprove!

I just read through your last few pages and you are doing amazing!! More important than your 90 days, is the steady progress you have made. Every time you manage to do another streak is a tremendous building block. Kudos to you on having strong filters as that is a game changer! 

You are an inspiration to all of us! Keep up the great work!

Realestatemogul wrote on 25 Dec 2020 16:47:

Thank you REM, I really appreciate it.

Although I'm yet to reach 90 days, I very much feel like I'm holding in a good, healthy place at the moment bH.

Funnily enough I struggled with trying to break through my filter often, but now that I got webchaver I find that I stopped trying. In a weird way, sometimes it's more important thinking that your filter works, rather than actual knowing it. (Although a functioning filter is also important)

Day 37

Shabbos was good as it normally is bH, went for a run on motsei shabbos and made some phone calls, to keep me busy.

Day 38
Not much to say today bH, went for a run tonight again to keep myself busy

Day 39

Feeling overwhelmed by stress today, bH I don't feel any urges, but not really in a healthy place. Gonna speak to a Rebbe tomorrow, beH I'll feel back to normal

Hi L.T.I,
I hope you get out of your "unhealthy man box" and get into your "happy good mood man box"!

Thank you Zedj!

Day 40
Still feeling stressed today to a lesser degree, but bH didn't have any urges. Went for a run again tonight to try be a bit preventative given that I'm a bit more vunderable than normal.

Day 41

Feeling pretty much back to normal, bH was able to focus and have kavono during davening, wasn't feeling distracted by the stress, as I was over the last few days

Struggling to sleep. I read a bit and did some sudoku. 
Going to finish up browsing the forums and then lock myself out my phone with zen mode. Even if I don't feel any taiva or urges now, I still want to be cautious given that I'm still up so late

Wow true Gevuras Hanefesh/Self Control.

excellence wrote on 31 Dec 2020 06:48:

Thanks, but that's an exaggeration. The only struggle I had last night was to fall asleep, I didn't have a desire and taiva to act out

Looking_to_improve wrote on 31 Dec 2020 07:06:

That's a mistake. Gevuras hanefesh includes making sure we don't get near the pitfalls, and that's what you did. Your actually beating the Yetzer hora much more this way, because he knows that if we get close at some point we will fall.