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Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 02 Nov 2017 20:34 #321911

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Thanks for the sympathy 
Truth be told there is almost no frustration most of the time as I am learning not to expect anything.......
And besides who wants to cuddle with a monster anyways....
very important thread: guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/19180-FEEL-THE-HUGS%21%21%21" option="guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/19180-FEEL-THE-HUGS%21%21%21">FEEL THE HUGS!!!

Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 02 Nov 2017 21:11 #321913

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And besides who wants to cuddle with a monster anyways....


A MONSTER??? Oish!!

That's a rough term to use, brother. And if that's the case, 

Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 02 Nov 2017 21:22 #321915

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Yes a monster 
someone who hurts and DECIDES to continue dong the hurtful thing(s) is a monster at best
(even if the one getting hurt doesn't necessarily know)
very important thread: guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/19180-FEEL-THE-HUGS%21%21%21" option="guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/19180-FEEL-THE-HUGS%21%21%21">FEEL THE HUGS!!!

Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 02 Nov 2017 21:26 #321916

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Monster,

Congrats on your 1000's post! May Hashem always be in your way!!



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Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 02 Nov 2017 23:03 #321922

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I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed
Get along with the voices inside of my head
You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath
And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy

No, I ain't much of a poet but I know somebody once told me
To seize the moment and don't squander it
'Cause you never know when it all could be over tomorrow
So I keep conjuring, sometimes I wonder where these thoughts spawn from
(Yeah, ponder it, do you want this?

No wonder you losing your mind, the way it wanders)
Yo-lo-lo-lo-yee-whoo
I think you've been wandering off down yonder
And stumbled onto Jeff VanVonderen
'Cause I need an interventionist
To intervene between me and this monster
And save me from myself and all this conflict
'Cause the very thing that I love is killing me and I can't conquer it
My OCD is conking me in the head
Keep knocking, nobody's home, I'm sleepwalking
I'm just relaying what the voice in my head's saying
Don't shoot the messenger, I'm just friends with the monster
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Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 02 Nov 2017 23:15 #321924

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cordnoy wrote on 02 Nov 2017 23:03:
I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed
Get along with the voices inside of my head
You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath
And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy

No, I ain't much of a poet but I know somebody once told me
To seize the moment and don't squander it
'Cause you never know when it all could be over tomorrow
So I keep conjuring, sometimes I wonder where these thoughts spawn from
(Yeah, ponder it, do you want this?

No wonder you losing your mind, the way it wanders)
Yo-lo-lo-lo-yee-whoo
I think you've been wandering off down yonder
And stumbled onto Jeff VanVonderen
'Cause I need an interventionist
To intervene between me and this monster
And save me from myself and all this conflict
'Cause the very thing that I love is killing me and I can't conquer it
My OCD is conking me in the head
Keep knocking, nobody's home, I'm sleepwalking
I'm just relaying what the voice in my head's saying
Don't shoot the messenger, I'm just friends with the monster

So if this were written in English it would read somethin' like this

Get the hell off the computer go to sleep get up tomorrow be productive and just freakin call someone already since you obviously cannot help yourself 
Love Cordnoy/(real name here)

did I get it right?  
very important thread: guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/19180-FEEL-THE-HUGS%21%21%21" option="guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/19180-FEEL-THE-HUGS%21%21%21">FEEL THE HUGS!!!

Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 02 Nov 2017 23:20 #321925

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MayanHamisgaber wrote on 02 Nov 2017 23:15:

cordnoy wrote on 02 Nov 2017 23:03:
I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed
Get along with the voices inside of my head
You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath
And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy

No, I ain't much of a poet but I know somebody once told me
To seize the moment and don't squander it
'Cause you never know when it all could be over tomorrow
So I keep conjuring, sometimes I wonder where these thoughts spawn from
(Yeah, ponder it, do you want this?

No wonder you losing your mind, the way it wanders)
Yo-lo-lo-lo-yee-whoo
I think you've been wandering off down yonder
And stumbled onto Jeff VanVonderen
'Cause I need an interventionist
To intervene between me and this monster
And save me from myself and all this conflict
'Cause the very thing that I love is killing me and I can't conquer it
My OCD is conking me in the head
Keep knocking, nobody's home, I'm sleepwalking
I'm just relaying what the voice in my head's saying
Don't shoot the messenger, I'm just friends with the monster

So if this were written in English it would read somethin' like this

Get the hell off the computer go to sleep get up tomorrow be productive and just freakin call someone already since you obviously cannot help yourself 
Love Cordnoy/(real name here)

did I get it right?  

You got the "love Cordnoy" right.
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Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 02 Nov 2017 23:27 #321926

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The "monster" might be referrin' to a generalization of obsessive compulsive intrusive thought disorder.
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Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 02 Nov 2017 23:33 #321927

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Or perhaps: the monster under the bed is yourself/myself. They are one and the same and there is no need to try and stamp it out or deny it. Knowin' and acceptin' your problems and limitations is half the battle. Why stuff ’em down? We can’t divorce ourselves from the crazy inside of our brains.
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Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 03 Nov 2017 00:30 #321931

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The monster could also refer to the ego.

For years my ego wanted me to stop masturbarion. I was making a deal with and befriended the monster. Only a vital spiritual experience could shake me into reality. I was literally blind and delusional for years. The other thing that tells me is that I am still blind to many things about  myself and I hope to have more revelations about that as God helps me grow. 

Thanks cords. 
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Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 03 Nov 2017 00:53 #321932

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It most certainly does refer to ego; especially an alter-ego.
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Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 03 Nov 2017 16:38 #321973

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Day #5

B"h today is going well also.  I think that this thread reached a whole new level with some Cordnoy poetry!

See everyone tomorrow!

Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 05 Nov 2017 00:59 #321983

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Day #6

B"h shabbos was good.  I had a temptation but I tried really hard to not let it get out of control and I tried to keep in mind that Hashem is the one fighting for me.  B"h it helped and I'm feeling much better now.  I still haven't acted out with either pornography or masturbation since I've started even though I'm only considering pornography a fall.

See everyone tomorrow!

Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 05 Nov 2017 05:16 #321986

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Keep it up buddy!
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Re: Bgit's Path Round #2 06 Nov 2017 02:47 #322018

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Day #7

Today wasn't as great as before since I did masturbate, but still no pornography.  I also tried to keep my mind blank from imagery as per the suggestion above.  It's hard to describe the feeling, but even at the time it wasn't this all consuming lust.  I'm not sure what to make of it, but I think that it feels healthier than using imagery.  According to my criteria though, I'm still clean.

See everyone tomorrow!
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