Reb Silent,
My name is Uri.
We're coming from the same place my friend.
And know that the addiction to porn,masturbation,or sex are all very much from the same place.
A need for love.A need for security.
But sadly,these things will never give us either one.In fact,the one relationship that I thought would finally grant me security is now my biggest source of insecurity.
The key is to find security within one's self.
This site can do great things for you.
It's a place of trust.
We all know exactly what you're feeling and where u are coming from cause we're there or have been there ourselves.
Stick with us,buddy,and we'll lift you up back into life

A little background about myself:
Grew up in a very modern home.Was out with girls alot.Lost my virginity at age 15.
Had sex on a very constant basis.
At age 17,I started to become very religious at a rapid pace.
Soon I found myself in maybe the most prestigious American yeshiva in Israel.
Things were going steady for a while.
But sooner than I knew,I was back in bed.And it returned to the way it was when I was not religious.
I mean here I am one of the yeshiva's masmids,the apple of my Rebbe's eye,my neighborhood's success story,the person my siblings looked up to,in bed with a strange girl!
I had lost control of myself.
I contemplated suicide.
I stood on the roof of my yeshiva building and looked down.
But,as you can see,I did not kill myself.
In fact,my life is now better than it was even before I had sex.
The point is not just to stop having sex and masturbating and watching porn.
The point is to use this addiction to bring us to a whole new life.
This is something that's very hard to understand when you are in the heat of the addiction.
But you'll have to take my word (and countless others) on this.
There is a beautiful life awaiting you if only you change your whole approach to life.
It might take a bit and it's worth it.
So this is the answer to your great question.
You don't want to be rid of your addiction because right now life outside the addiction is blah!
You're thinking "okay.so i wont be having sex.but ill be miserable as hell."
There is another option.
I'm telling you:it exists!
I strongly suggest an addiction therapist/12-step groups.
You need to undergo a serious change for this to work.
It's the only way.

All the best
-uri