iwant2begood wrote:
Your totally right but what's the way to get rid of it sometimes it's just to strong
What I do is ask god to get rid of it. Like you said, it's very strong sometimes, for me it's like that also. I have tried many things in the past but nothing had lasting success. I eventually came to the reality that nothing I could do would work. I just needed to let the feeling pass and try not to succumb to it. That didn't work either. Which led me to the answer I have now which is to ask god to take it away. Nothing is stronger than hashem and he can take it away. I also find that calling others and explaining my predicament is really helpful, it takes me out of isolation and out of my own head, which is the problem in the first place.
Also, you are good already. You're just struggling. Many good people struggle.