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Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 12 May 2015 21:45 #254519

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I want to share what is in my mind now, and maybe we can clear it out.

B"h i am at day 76, and moving forward day by day.

In my mind i think, yeh what do you think you will never fall? Don't be kidding. the question is not if i will fall or not, the question is when i will fall. I am trying to be honest with myself.

What do you all say about this?
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Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 12 May 2015 23:19 #254525

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Personally, Only today exists for me. Today I choose sobriety. Tomorrow I'm free to do what I want
Much Hatzlacha!

My Threads:
Glad to be here
Don't slip it hurts
Lions & Tigers & Internet, Oh My!

--"ולא המדרש עיקר, אלא המעשה"
--"To promise not to do a thing is the surest way in the world to make a body want to go and do that very thing." Mark Twain
--"If, when you honestly want to, you find you cannot quit entirely, or if when drinking (or lusting), you have little control over the amount you take, you are probably alcoholic (or sexaholic)." AA Big Book P. 45. Parenthesis added.
--You hit rock bottom when you decide to stop digging.

Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 19 May 2015 20:21 #255068

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Hi chaveirim,

How are you all doing?

B"h am at day 83 and counting. Had a little hard day yesterday, but BS"D made it through. moving along day by day, and seeing new strength that I dint see till now.
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Last Edit: 19 May 2015 20:21 by lomed.

Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 19 May 2015 21:11 #255072

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Hi lomed,
Well done for all your efforts that have got you here but most importantly for today. I also had a tough challenge yesterday. I realise afterwards that the yetzer hara puts extra effort on propitious days like erev Rosh Chodesh Sivan when we pray for out kids. Rosh Chodesh too is usually extra tough for me.
Regarding your post on 12th May that it's a question of when not if:
I think I'm like that too - but that doesn't bother me because I'm not worrying or bothered about tomorrow.
Why am I not worried about tomorrow? I'm not sure. Maybe I'm short sighted. And that certainly enabled the addiction, so well done if it now enables a relaxed sobriety.

Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 26 May 2015 16:58 #255397

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i get a mazel tov today b"h. i reached 90!!!!!!!
hope to stay clean day by day, and by all chaveirim as well.
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Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 26 May 2015 17:13 #255401

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mazal tov!!!
What a good feeling that must be. Keep up the good work! We should all do well!
Shlomo

Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 26 May 2015 17:44 #255405

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Mazel tov on this wonderful occasion!

So tell us, how did you do it?
Much Hatzlacha!

My Threads:
Glad to be here
Don't slip it hurts
Lions & Tigers & Internet, Oh My!

--"ולא המדרש עיקר, אלא המעשה"
--"To promise not to do a thing is the surest way in the world to make a body want to go and do that very thing." Mark Twain
--"If, when you honestly want to, you find you cannot quit entirely, or if when drinking (or lusting), you have little control over the amount you take, you are probably alcoholic (or sexaholic)." AA Big Book P. 45. Parenthesis added.
--You hit rock bottom when you decide to stop digging.

Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 26 May 2015 17:45 #255406

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Mazel Tov!!! KUTGW!
!אנא עבדא דקודשא בריך הוא

וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל


"If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE."
"Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome."
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My story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/111583-hello-my-friends

Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 26 May 2015 17:52 #255408

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B"H - How wonderful!

So exciting!

Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 26 May 2015 21:04 #255442

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MAZAL TOV!!!

Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 26 May 2015 21:42 #255444

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serenity wrote:
Mazel tov on this wonderful occasion!

So tell us, how did you do it?


I am not sure if I know the real answer.

At first it was not easy. i had a way of life that was instilled in me. I was sure that everyone masturbates constantly, and to be clean is a fantasy that does not exist. It is just a question of how much a person will masturbate, but not if a person masturbates or not.

As the first week or two past, it became easier for me to resist. I prayed whenever i was in a challenge. Whenever I was on fire, i told myself you are not going to act out. It is over! Bs"d i am at day 90, which I cant say that this or that was the way I came here. I am sure that the support (directly to me, and what i read from other threads) that I got here on GYE was a big contributing factor.
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Last Edit: 26 May 2015 22:12 by lomed.

Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 26 May 2015 22:29 #255447

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lomed, wow - keep up the great work!

Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 26 May 2015 22:36 #255448

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MAZAL TOV !!!
Thank you for your accomplishment, which will certainly be helpful for all the kaal Hachem and even the entire world as it is well known.

Waiting for others good news and words of wisdom from you !

Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 26 May 2015 22:37 #255449

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P.S : I don't know if this is appropriate but maybe you could think about a new name for your threat, haha :p

Re: started 90 days as a preparation of lag beomer! 26 May 2015 23:11 #255450

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Palti-Yossef wrote:
P.S : I don't know if this is appropriate but maybe you could think about a new name for your threat, haha :p


You know what, you just hit the nail. It was when I was planning to go to Israel, and thought it would be appropriate to do something and try to get somewhat clean before going to Meron. I thought that this will never succeed. But seemingly for now, that Yes as i started this thread, כדאי רבי שמעון לסמוך עליו בשעת הדחק
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