I understand you about the lack of a 12 steps group, I have the same problem...
I think the effects of the withdrawal are beginning to make the things more difficult. Don't panic, we all been there.
It's a good thing to talk to Hashem, continue to do it, and to let to Him the battle.
Stay away from Internet or all possibilities to see new pictures ! Because the new pictures will call the old pictures, and then you can entry in a vicious circle.
I also had a difficult day yesterday, and clearly my internet filter saved me from a fall (I configured the filter in a paranoiac mode
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A part to the work is to make the difference between the lust desire of porn, and the desire to be intimate with our wife : the first is an addict problem, the second is a mitsvoh. But, with porn, all is confused in our mind...
It's a big mental work to separate the two.
You can contact me if you want, I sent you a private message.