Ich hub dee voch getrinken millech fin ah dinover kee. S'iz nisht gevehn pasteurized "udder" homogenized udder anything else. S'iz gevehn frish finnem kee. Ich hub ess getrinken in Sanz in oich in Dinov alien. In Lizhensk hub ich nisht getrinken kein millech ubber ich hub inzinen gehat dee gantze chooshiven tzibbir.

Einer fin de frierdiger Rebbes, ven m'hot em gefregt fin vus hot er parnussa?, hot er gezugt "Ich Hub tzvei KEEIN" -

כי בשם קדשו בטחנו
כי מעולם קוינו לך

ויש גורסים בנוסח זה:
כי הוא קל זן ומפרנס לכל
כי לעולם חסדו

shivisi wrote:


ואני ראיתי (בסידור ע"ט לנשים) נוסח אחר
כי בו ישמח לבנו
כי בשם קדשו בטחנו

!הוֹדוּ לַה' כִּי טוֹב כִּי לְעוֹלָם חַסְדּוֹ

(408) שזהו שווה בגימטריא לצום קול ממון כמבואר במקום אחר ודו''ק

I haven't posted on here in a while, but i was thinking of something on the way home today, so i decided to post it here.

I still am plagued by the unfairness of my situation. I am an addict and can never take my first sip of "alcohol". On top of that there are other things that seem unfair. My wife is incapable of passing certain levels in intimacy, and I have other situations that when I look at other people I cannot help but feel a twinge (ok, maybe a little more then a twinge) of jealousy.

Today I was walking home and thought of the recent events going on around where I live in Eretz Yisroel. The three kidnapped bochurim, the rockets flying at all those towns in the south (some made it here to Yerushalayim too and I know how it feels to have to run to a shelter, I can't imagine doing that 50-100 times a day). the war, the soldiers going to fight, the wounded soldiers, the soldiers who were killed nebach ר"ל, and now the most recent: the missing Bochur who was found dead this afternoon.

It's pretty scary and when thinking about it, another story that i witnessed came to mind: I was a staff member in Camp Simcha for a few years. On the last night of camp, after all the campers are sleeping, there is a staff meeting by which all the staff have a chance to share their most inspiring experiences of that summer. One year, a counselor got up and asked "Why them!? why do they have to suffer all their pain? and why don't we?" and he answered by relating how 2 of his friends were driving together on their way from New York to the mountains when suddenly the car flipped over. The driver was immediately killed. The passenger walked away with barely a scratch. The counselor finished off by saying "I don't know why them, and I also don't know why 2 people sitting less then a foot away from each other in a car can have such polar opposite outcomes. But, what I DO know, and what I DID realize is that Hashem must have a chashbon".

Through the terrible recent times, we can ask "why them?" and through our terrible addiction we can ask "Why us!?". And with the most recent story again, the Bochur that survived that hike can ask the same question.

The truth is, I don't know why. And I also don't need to. Because what all this shows us is that Hashem must have a cheshbon. Chances don't happen with such polar opposites. It doesn't happen with one surviving without a scratch and the other having the most terrible outcome.

thanks,
i heard that most "why" questions, aren't really looking for a logical answer, rather they are a way of expressing frustrations.

Yes, and reminding ourselves of the lessons that Lizhensk wrote of so beautifully, is a way to alleviate those frustrations. I forget often. Thanks for the reminder!

Please don't be a stranger.
you write so well and clear.
We need you around here.
Thanks for that post.

b'hatzlachah

I'd like to add another thought...

When the first siren rang in Yerushalayim, alot of Americans started thinking of leaving the zman early and going back to America. I spoke to my wife about it, who in turn mentioned it to my Shvigger. I told her that if Hashem wants tot get us, he's gonna get us in New York too. And if he doesn't, then no amount of Hamas, Hezbollah, PLO, Islamic Jihad etc etc etc etc can get to us. Everything has a reason. And everyONE has a reason. We don't now why, how, when, but I DO know that there is a reason and that's all I need.

Yesh chiyuv lehizaher min sakana
Keivun shnitan reshus lamazik eino mavchin bein tzaddik larasha

thank you for sharing those beautiful thoughts

Oh and regards to your shvigger

TehillimZugger wrote:

YAYAYAYAYA! Lizzy you're back!!!!!!!!!!!


So nu, how are you going to internalize what you said? How will you use it and stop hampering everything on your dear wife ( )?