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Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 29 Nov 2014 02:37 #244299

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	A day of honesty: We had a financially (very) stressful week but the yad hashem apparent so many times. We did not see what we thought we wanted, but it was clear at the end that Hakadosh Baruch Hu was running the the show from backstage. A tough pill to swallow but really happy that I did. Good Shabbos
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 02 Dec 2014 00:35 #244395

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	I realized today that I instinctively turn to lust when I feel scared or vulnerable... Knowing in advance is very helpful
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 03 Dec 2014 07:12 #244517

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I think I read that we don't turn to lust; lust turns us!

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Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 05 Dec 2014 22:36 #244723

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	Leichter!
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 08 Dec 2014 04:29 #244799

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Besamim!

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Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 25 Dec 2014 01:08 #245699

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Chevra,

i haven't post in a while so here's the update.

Bh things are going well. not lusting, minimal slipping.

The chiddush is that I've been under massive stress the past few weeks. I kept on davening as I felt like I would explode from the pressure: (paraphrased) Hashem there is no way I can beat the lust monsters on my own. All the triggers are here. A little while back I would automatically cave in and feed my addiction. I recognize that I simply don't have the koach to fight them. PLEASE help me.

These pleading have probably been the most sincere expression of being powerless that I've ever articulated. I really really felt powerless.

...And with HKBH's help, I stayed clean

eli

Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!

No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie

The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards

Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 07 Jan 2015 22:58 #246784

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	Hi Chevra. I had some bad slips over the past few days. Recommitting to enjoying the good clean life. Updated my taphsic (which had expired). Veiter Eli
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 07 Jan 2015 23:57 #246789

shomer bro OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 428 Karma: 21	That's the name of the game, you gotta keep moving forward and of course, KOMT!!! You rock bro!!!

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 08 Jan 2015 00:47 #246790

Shmeichel Current streak: 980 days OFFLINE Gold Boarder Smiling to YOU! Posts: 256 Karma: 18	i think the whole problem is in your truck i noticed it has only one single cannon what about if the enemy comes from behind? or from sideways? i think if you sort that out you will have much longer clean streaks
	when going forward gets tough, its merely a sign that you are going uphill, just give more gas put your sobriety first; before your wife, before your kids, before your avodas HaTorah (except for the 3 that are יעבור ואל יהרג) Without sobriety you won't have any of those things!

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 08 Jan 2015 01:05 #246791

shomer bro OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 428 Karma: 21	Its a gun turret, and they swivel 360°.

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 08 Jan 2015 04:37 #246802

Shmeichel Current streak: 980 days OFFLINE Gold Boarder Smiling to YOU! Posts: 256 Karma: 18	oh excellent surely you'r on top of it
	when going forward gets tough, its merely a sign that you are going uphill, just give more gas put your sobriety first; before your wife, before your kids, before your avodas HaTorah (except for the 3 that are יעבור ואל יהרג) Without sobriety you won't have any of those things!

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 09 Jan 2015 18:09 #246883

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Have you noticed what has been causin' the slips?

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Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 10 Jan 2015 01:09 #246914

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	yeah, walking on slippery ground
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 10 Jan 2015 01:10 #246915

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	Just kidding. As I mentioned to you in our chat. i had not completely updated my taphsic, which i did later. Contribution factors: no exercise for two week, exaustion
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 17 Jan 2015 01:36 #247341

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	LEICHTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi