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My Story - Reallygettingthere 11 Oct 2012 00:34 #145810

reallygettingthere	I

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 11 Oct 2012 08:19 #145843

chaimcharlie Current streak: 10 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 396 Karma: 6	Nice story. My story is pretty similar, getting so stuck in "I" that I'm now dreadfully addicted to lust in general and masturbation in particular.

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 11 Oct 2012 14:21 #145857

Machshovo Tova OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1230 Karma: 26	I, I, I. Hatzlacha MT

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 11 Oct 2012 22:03 #145944

reallygettingthere	Thanks. I've been struggling with these taavos since before my bar mitzva. Whenever i would leave a situation the YH would present me with something else. L'maaseh, I'm a bit scared what the next nisayon will be...

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 11 Oct 2012 22:15 #145949

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Being scared does not help. You need a plan, with a commitment to follow through, and keep fine-tuning your tactics. Read the GYE handbook for great chizzuk and great ideas. Reach out to the chevra for advice and encouragement. Form a relationship with Hashem, by talking to Him daily and asking for His help. Make gedarim which will help you avoid triggering situations.

Hatzlacha & take it one day at a time.

MT

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 11 Oct 2012 22:26 #145951

reallygettingthere	funny, you cant plan for the unknown. Just gotta be a zahir and a "brother in trickery" to the YH you have to think like a thief to catch one If I was the YH what would I want me to be doing now...?

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 12 Oct 2012 03:04 #145973

reallygettingthere	BH finishing day 12 but I had a crazy case of the munchies. Is this normal? Unrelated? Its not like I eat pound of jelly beans but I ate a lot more nosh than I normally would and felt at one point that I couldn't stop. Yes it's not like I went on a pornography binge but I normally don't do things like this

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 12 Oct 2012 18:41 #146052

reallygettingthere	day 13 woo hoo!

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 13 Oct 2012 19:51 #146072

dont give up	keep on trucking!!!

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 14 Oct 2012 02:46 #146077

reallygettingthere	Thanks DGU Day 14 overcame a very minor nisayon that I suspect was a covert operation by the YH to trip me up down the line BH!

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 15 Oct 2012 22:32 #146201

reallygettingthere	WOAH! not sure what triggered it but I'm feeling really anxious and feels like the YH is trying to get me to fall. Dear Hashem, Please help me get past this. I can't do it without you Love, Eli

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 15 Oct 2012 22:49 #146203

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this is helping www.chabad.info/images/notimage/28413_en_1.mp3

the anxiousness isn't going away yet, but now now it's encountering a fight from another emotion

Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!

No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie

The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards

Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Last Edit: 12 Jan 2013 01:14 by reallygettingthere.

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 15 Oct 2012 23:32 #146206

reallygettingthere	My mistake, I'm on day 17. DAY SEVENTEEN!!!

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 16 Oct 2012 01:59 #146211

reallygettingthere	Still singing the niggun... (hands waving in the air)

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 18 Oct 2012 03:56 #146310

reallygettingthere	Day 19. It's amazing. I now that I am actively looking away from sghts that will trigger my addiction, I am only starting to realize how out of control my lack of shmiras eynaim is. My instinctive reaction is to look and only after I look do I catch myself and turn away.