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Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 30 Aug 2013 17:44 #217941

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Last night
Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!

No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie

The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards

Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 02 Sep 2013 23:03 #218253

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tehillimzugger wrote:
reallygettingthere wrote:
a shiur in Mesilas Yesharim for Beis Yakov girls

ZemirosShabbos said Thank You, Hellllllllloooooooooooo?!!!!!! Moderator?!
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Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise
~Inna beshem ZS

Give, Forgive
~Cordnoy

The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting.
~TZ

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 03 Sep 2013 02:05 #218273

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ZemirosShabbos wrote:
tehillimzugger wrote:
reallygettingthere wrote:
a shiur in Mesilas Yesharim for Beis Yakov girls

ZemirosShabbos said Thank You, Hellllllllloooooooooooo?!!!!!! Moderator?!
Trigger?!

if you are triggered by Mesilas Yeshorim, calm down and just learn Orchos Tzadikim instead


Orchos is lashon n'keiva!!!

Hellllllllloooooooooooo?!!!!!! Moderator?! Trigger?!
Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!

No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie

The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards

Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 03 Sep 2013 19:26 #218340

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Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise
~Inna beshem ZS

Give, Forgive
~Cordnoy

The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting.
~TZ

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 04 Sep 2013 20:23 #218443

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5773 Year in Review:

Started working on my dealing with my lust problem
Which led to a better "everything"
Started new job
Which helped me start get my financial situation on track
Started exercising
Which led to
Loosing weight and
being healthier in general
which makes me feel better physically

New chavrusah
Which helped me get my learning more on track

HKBH has been incredibly kind to me (always, but I guess I have an easier time seeing it this year).

I hope to be able to "repay the goodness" to Hashem.

I thought that I was dying a slow death drowning in lust.

GYE has shown me that there is a path out that hell.

I can't thank you enough.

May you all be blessed with a k'siva vachasima tova and merit a year of simcha and menuchas hanefesh.


Love,

Eli
Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!

No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie

The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards

Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 04 Sep 2013 21:07 #218446

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reallygettingthere wrote:
I hope to be able to "repay the goodness" to Hashem.

Beautiful post.

We can never really "repay" Hahem, but we can recognize his goodness which is what you've done. May all the good stuff continue to get better. Have a k'siva v'chasima tova!

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 09 Sep 2013 20:38 #218629

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reallygettingthere wrote:
I moved one step closer to honesty. I wrote my wife a letter telling her that I know that I have not been spending enough time with her (emotionally and simply spending time with her) and that I intend to change that.


That was in January.

I recently saw that my wife keeps that note with her in her purse.
Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!

No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie

The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards

Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 10 Sep 2013 22:06 #218769

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REAL connection lasts. Nice story.

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 11 Sep 2013 01:21 #218799

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The fact that she holds onto that note shows that for her, Eli is the most relevant and important of all the humans on this planet, you Eli are the single most important one.

That is a huge thing to her - too bad realizing that and truly accepting that fully is so hard for us 'overaged bochurim'. We are babies and don't really grow up and realize how important we are to another person! It's not something to boost your ego - it is a responsibility of real living and real loving.

Boy, do we have a long way to go...
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

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?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 11 Sep 2013 01:54 #218810

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who is boasting? I'm just happy that I was able to reach a new level of clarity.
Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!

No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie

The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards

Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 11 Sep 2013 02:09 #218812

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Nah, she's just hanging on to it so she can hold it against you later. "But you promised...."

!אנא עבדא דקודשא בריך הוא

וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל


"If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE."
"Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome."
- General Grant


My story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/111583-hello-my-friends

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 11 Sep 2013 07:19 #218824

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Yeah gevurah, just like I said - even if she is angry and holding onto it for that: IT'S BECAUSE HE IS THE MOST POWERFUL RELATION IN HER LIFE RIGHT NOW. Who said that the worst relationship is hatred? Not me. It's indifference.

(Sorry, I know you were just kidding....but I'm in a serious mood, so I don't care. Ha! )

(Not really that serious, but kind of serious.)

(OK, maybe not serious at all.)

(never mind...food night)

(I meant, good night, not 'food' night)

( )
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 11 Sep 2013 07:38 #218826

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Food night!!!!!! Yeah!!!!
!אנא עבדא דקודשא בריך הוא

וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל


"If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE."
"Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome."
- General Grant


My story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/111583-hello-my-friends

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 11 Sep 2013 09:09 #218829

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FOOD FIGHT!!
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