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TOPIC: My Story - Reallygettingthere 56734 Views
Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 02 Aug 2013 07:36 #214716
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Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!
No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi |
Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 02 Aug 2013 07:42 #214717
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My email: thenewme613@hotmail.com
My threads: Mikvah Night - Page 1, Page 2, Page 3, Last Page https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/1-Break-Free/210029-Tryin  Warning: Spoiler!Quote from the chevra: "Is Cordnoy truly a Treasure Island pirate from the Southern Seas?" MY POSTS ARE NOT WRITTEN AS A MODERATOR UNLESS EXPLICITLY STATED. |
Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 02 Aug 2013 21:25 #214816
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Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!
No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi |
Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 06 Aug 2013 08:26 #215152
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Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!
No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi |
Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 09 Aug 2013 05:56 #215564
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Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!
No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi |
Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 09 Aug 2013 07:20 #215565
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"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."
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Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 09 Aug 2013 08:47 #215573
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Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!
No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi |
Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 09 Aug 2013 11:09 #215579
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reallygettingthere wrote:
Crazy thing just happened. I'm waiting for a flight in an airport when I noticed an attractive woman sitting a few seats away reading a book. A few minutes later two of her friends came over and started speaking to her in German. I suddenly felt "fa eckelt" and no longer had any desire to even look in her direction. :p 
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i used to look back all the time saying "oh no! what have i done! Hashem help me erase the past." and i never heard a response.
finally i started looking forward saying "Hashem i'm leaving the past to you and i'm forgetting all about it. help me have a good future. help me from here and on be the person You want me to be." and that's where i realized Hashem had been waiting to help me all along |
Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 09 Aug 2013 19:47 #215660
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Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 09 Aug 2013 20:53 #215670
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Happy Leichter Day!
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וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל "If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE." "Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome." - General Grant My story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/111583-hello-my-friends |
Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 09 Aug 2013 21:41 #215677
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Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!
No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi |
Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 09 Aug 2013 23:02 #215686
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Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 12 Aug 2013 23:34 #215899
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Why I Joined GYE
I was spending so much engaging my lust... I spent too much money engaging my lust (pay-as-you-go data plans=Bad News, only one example) I was always pushing off my learning commitments so I was not accomplishing anything in learning and that made me upset with myself I didn't spend enough time with my wife and that made me upset with myself I didn't spend enough time with my kids and that made me upset with myself I never got enough sleep which made me tired which made me under-perform at work and that made me upset with myself and which made me snappy which eroded my shalom bayis and that made me upset with myself which got me mad and that made me upset with myself Which made my shalom bayis worse and that made me upset with myself Which often made me look to lust to calm me down and that made me upset with myself Deep down I knew i had the potential to be so much better but I was letting myself down. I was letting my family down and I was letting Hashem down (so to speak). I felt liek a complete failure and a fake because most of the people that knew me though that I was a "great guy", a baal seichel blah, blah, blah (fill in the blah for whatever you would like) But for most of my life, my plan was to "try harder" These days: I spend more time with my wife, I spend more time smiling at my wife I am learning more than I have since I left kollel I am learning and spending more time with my children I am being more productive at work I'm getting a little more sleep ;-) I am loving my life despite the challenges that I am being thrown (I no longer have screaming sessions with Hashem when I am frustrated  )I went from a miserable, pitiful existence to a life full of hope opportunity and fulfillment. I still have a lot of work ahead of me. I am not deluded to think that "I got this under control", but I see the path leading out of the maze. Love, Eli |
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Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!
No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi |
Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 12 Aug 2013 23:42 #215902
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My email: thenewme613@hotmail.com
My threads: Mikvah Night - Page 1, Page 2, Page 3, Last Page https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/1-Break-Free/210029-Tryin Warning: Spoiler!Quote from the chevra: "Is Cordnoy truly a Treasure Island pirate from the Southern Seas?" MY POSTS ARE NOT WRITTEN AS A MODERATOR UNLESS EXPLICITLY STATED. |
Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 12 Aug 2013 23:57 #215905
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Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise
~Inna beshem ZS Give, Forgive ~Cordnoy The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting. ~TZ |
