WOW ur doing great! It's so wonderful that you are able to let go of the pain.

I think "sameach bchelko" means to be content with what one has been given, and to accept the circumstances, the challenges, and the mission of one's life.
And to take advantage of those challenges as a springboard for continued growth.

KUTGW & KOMT!!!!! (Watch out for that stop sign!)

Gevura!

mazel tov on 57 good days!

yehi ratzon that today should be good
as someone said

“What day is it?"
It's today," squeaked Piglet.
My favorite day," said Pooh.”
― A.A. Milne

wishing you continued success
zs

sameach bechalko and ruchniyus
www.guardyoureyes.org/forum/index.php?topic=3284.msg119126#msg119126
www.guardyoureyes.org/forum/index.php?topic=3284.msg112665#msg112665

Thank you all. This is what keeps me going!

Stoppingforever wrote on 18 Jan 2012 05:09:

You mean keeps you stopping??? .

;D yes. I should amend that though. Hashem is what keeps me going/stopping. I have relinquished all control into his hands (after doing my maximum due diligence), he holds the rains, and that is the only reason for any successes. At times I close my eyes and picture myself being held by Hashem, he lifts me and carries me. I reflect on the verse in Haazinu כנשר יעיר קינו, על גוזליו ירחף... ישאהו על אברתו Hashem carries us, like an eagle carries it's young on its' wings, which brings me to the following verse ה' בדד ינחנו, ואין עמו א-ל נכר Hashem alone guides us, and not foreign god is with him, foreign god in my humble opinion can also mean the כחי ועוצם ידי.

Is that not one of the 12 steps? admitting that we are powerless, and relinquishing control to a higher authority? To quote Dov "one of the foundations of the 12-Steps is learning how to "Let Go and Let G-d" ".

The chizuk from all of you on this site helps me remember that Hashem holds the rains, and helps me remember not to slip out of his rains, into my own, my ego, כוחי ועוצם ידי - which is were all problems begin.

Thank you all for the chizuk, and may Hashem bless each an every one of you with emotional and physical health, wealth, and most important - time to enjoy it!

don't know how to link to other posts, go to Beis Medrash section and look at Salant Center D'var post #16 for this very point.
Hatzlacha in all things GOOD.
chaimyakov

chaimyakov wrote on 19 Jan 2012 16:40:


Just find the post you want to quote, click the link at the top of the post (pictured below),  then copy the address from the address bar and paste it right into your post, like this www.guardyoureyes.org/forum/index.php?topic=4838.msg131139#msg131139 .

gibbor120,
sorry, i'm slow sometimes, but not retarded.  i tried but it brought the post in instead of the link.  Do i just copy the funky number on the bottom left of the post?

chaimyakov wrote on 19 Jan 2012 16:53:

Sorry, I was just trying to be as clear as possible.

chaimyakov wrote on 19 Jan 2012 16:53:


That's why it's important to click the link at the top of the specific post you are trying to quote, in this thread it's "Re: My life, my struggle, my triumph".  THEN, copy it from the address bar.  Notice the link is at the top of each individual post.

Quote from: chaimyakov on January 19, 2012, 06:53:18 PM

    gibbor120,
    sorry, i'm slow sometimes, but not retarded.


Sorry, I was just trying to be as clear as possible."

Chas V'shalom, i didn't think you were implying i was slow or retarded, that phrase is a bit of family humor.  i was pointing out my own inability to follow simple instructions.  i think i now know how to link to other posts.  Thank you for your patience.
Hatzlacha in all things GOOD.
chaimyakov

אודה השם מאד בפי ובתוך רבים אהללנו

Boruch Hashem, and with his help only, I reached the 70 day milestone. I Thank all of you for your encouraging words. It's interesting to observe how little of my day(s) are invested in struggle, in restraint, and how the majority of the time is spent around constructive stuff..

Though its a great blessing to be removed from the constant struggle, it concerns me, because the more removed we are from a struggle, the more we are in danger of slipping straight to the bottom without noticing, because it's not on our mind. Does anyone have suggestions? I must be proactive. I refuse, absolutely refuse to fall.

Stopping (not stooping)

I think you said it perfectly.  Yes, we can't "fight" the Y"H for very long without losing.  The trick is to focus our energy in positive ways so we don't even meet the Y"H.  On the other hand there is a BIG danger in complacency.  It allows us to feel like we are in a good place and can "afford" to take a sip.  Before we know it, we don't know what hit us, we fall, we feel like garbage again, and that only leads to more acting out.

So we need to remember that we are in constant danger even though we don't feel it, but don't actively "fight it", but rather use our positive energy to keep us busy and not focused on the Y"H at all.  We need to keep the knowledge of our weakness always simmering on the back burner and use it to help us avaoid taking sips.  If we do take a sip, the alarm bells should go off and we should remind ourselves of how weak we really are.

Make sense?

My friends, I have no words, I'm humbled by Hashem's kindness for having carried me towards this 91st day, a milestone in my lifelong journey.

Thank you all for your support along the way, I will be sure to continue posting my progress, with Hashem's help of-course.

MAZEL TOV!!!!!!!

KUTGW! May you continue to find ever greater happiness and contentment in Avodas Hashem.

Gevura!

So, so good to hear of your continued success.

Where to go from here?
Same as it ever was.  One day at a time.
Wishing you much happiness.

Alex