Keep 'em comin'!!!!!!!!

AWESOME!!!!!!

Me too, but not exciting to me.  i will not, can not allow myself to focus beyond now!  Trying to remain as even keeled as possible, not too high nor too low.  Filling my time with positive things and davening to Hashem for the help that only He can provide.
Hatzlacha in all things GOOD.
chaimyakov

Thank you Gevura and Chaim Yaacov for the chizuk

It's very hard for me to tell myself that I am STRONG and can overcome my temptaions, yet at the same time tell myself that I'm WEAK and need barriers. Yet another balancing act in the life of an addict.

Most of the time I am proud that I am facing my issues and dealing with them head on. Some of the time I feel disgusted by myself and disgraced at my animalistic addiction and need for selfish self indulgence. Right now I'm feeling like the "some of the time". maybe it's because its motzei shabbos and I'm feeling the holy spirit exit me. Whatever the reason, I disgust myself right now.

Why are you disgusted with yourself? Be proud of the amazing progress you have made!

A Gut Voch, and Keep On Trucking!

Gevura!

Today is my 89th day clean of this cycle! Now is "most of the time".

:)Times 44.5

AWESOME!!

Keep it up just for today.
i have heard from too many (3 last night at my sa meeting) who have reached 90 - 100 days only to fall and some to fall hard.  i am more focused than ever on today and hope you are too.
Hatzlacha in all things GOOD.
chaimyakov

Yossi.L. wrote on 24 Jan 2012 22:00:

the sefer Divrei Tzaddikim in the beginning of this week's parsha, beshalach. writes: lo yamush amud heanan yomam vaamud haesh laylah, when it's going good, when it's yomam, it's all good- be sure to have the anan- the aniyus and anava. but when it's laylah when things are down, then you must use your eish- your fire!

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I had a fall on my 90th day. Chaimyaacov how right you are. For the sake of brevity bec I don't have much time....in the morning I woke up after having a sexual dream...instead of jumping out of bed, I lied there continuing the fantasy in my head for about ten minutes...I dangled myself on the threshold of temptation until I pulled away. In truth, I don't feel horrible about it because I didn't place myself in a compromising position, rather I was placed in a lusting position by my dream which I have no control over. And being that I am an addict....... Don't getvme wrong; I am disappointed and upset that inlusted etc however thus is not a devastating fall and I'm able to take it in stride. Please share anythingnthat you see in this story that I can learn from. Thanks.

Yossi

Hi yossi maybe check with your sponsor because sobriety means a progressive victory over lust it is important to know that we must be constantly progressing and not just holding on.Allso once you become the authority on your sobriety you allso decide when you act out so proceed with caution.Nice work.

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ZemirosShabbos wrote on 03 Feb 2012 16:18:

Definitely a CLASSIC!