OK, last one for now and then I'll shut up:

Yudi wrote:


Please don't!

wow I might be ahead in the stepwork, but you going to SA and doing full sharing is monster.  they'll eventually push the steps on you and you'll thrive, BH.
yesterday I had a scare.  I went out to take pictures of the moon, my wife was on the computer and into her own thing.  She didn't hear that I was leaving.  Well I came home, and as I was walking up the stairs, I heard WAILING coming from the house.  My wife is pregnant and this greatly distressed me.  I came in and my wife was having a full out panic/crying/wailing attack, lying on the floor.  I was totally confused and scared and didn't know what was going on.  She couldn't catch her breath, and was literally shrieking.  "Where were you!!! Where were you!!" she had been using Facebook for the first time, and freaked out about the information that suddenly appeared and what was getting out about her.  She couldn't reach me on my cell and didn't know where I went. 

I'll tell you what I normally would have done to this manipulative insanity.  I would have yelled, shouted real loud, started to punch things in the house like the wall or the mirror, primarily to cause injury to myself.  I then would have drunk a bottle of wine or two, gone for a massage, and gotten away.

This time, because my wife is pregnant and i was seriously concerned about her physical and mental health, and also because I prostrated myself in the morning, I focused on what the proper, spiritual thing to do would be.  I focused on trying to get her to breath.  I held her hand and calmly but forcefully guided her to focus on her breathing, not to worry about Facebook, or about where I was. i continued to hold her hand, calm her down, and eventually she calmed down.  At one point I did cry, I was petrified.  Thank Gcd she is okay, we heard kicking. 

why did this happen?  my wife later asked me where I really went.  I said, to try to take a picture of the moon.  Earlier there was a beautiful sliver in the sky, it looked like a smiley face for Adar, and I thought how cool a pic that would be.  Anyhow, she rightfully didn't trust where I had been.  So I'm living in the consequences of my hurtful behaviour, I accept it, and put my trust in Gcd to protect me and my family from everything.

The irony of course is that in leaving the house to take a picture of the moon, I came home to lunacy!  ;-)

hey i just fell and im depressed

Hey you're supposed to stay anonymous here!