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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 16 Feb 2012 22:51 #133216

gibbor120 OFFLINE Platinum Boarder NEVER EVER GIVE UP! Posts: 5251 Karma: 166	ZemirosShabbos wrote on 16 Feb 2012 22:46: omer muttar is probably 'thinking it is permitted' or at least "rationalizing" that it is.
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 16 Feb 2012 22:55 #133218

ZemirosShabbos OFFLINE Platinum Boarder pass the compote Posts: 6153 Karma: 72	ויש אומרים שנרגנות הוא חסרון וודפורד
	Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise ~Inna beshem ZS Give, Forgive ~Cordnoy The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting. ~TZ Last Edit: by .

Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 16 Feb 2012 23:25 #133220

obormottel OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1440 Karma: 6	ZemirosShabbos wrote on 16 Feb 2012 22:55: ויש אומרים שנרגנות הוא חסרון וודפורד got it!
	Baby steps. If the road is pulling you down, it's a sign that you are going uphill, so just press harder on the gas! Have a great day - unless, of course, you made other plans. Last Edit: by .

Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 17 Feb 2012 08:48 #133245

TehillimZugger OFFLINE Platinum Boarder לבד הנשמה הטהורה Posts: 2446 Karma: 34	about the dov complaints, come on over to ben durday's place: www.guardyoureyes.org/forum/index.php?topic=4049.msg133129#msg133129 about narganut: that's my favorite verse in Tanach! בְּאֶפֶס עֵצִים תִּכְבֶּה אֵשׁ וּבְאֵין נִרְגָּן יִשְׁתֹּק מָדוֹן Nirgon- is fornd a few times in mishlei- this one is from chapter 26
	?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him? Last Edit: by .

Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 18 Feb 2012 21:18 #133300

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If you don't mind, I'll take over my thread again.

Thank you Hashem for an entire Shovovim clean.

I don’t know if this is the first time I ever went through an entire 6 or 8 weeks of Shovovim without masturbating, but it is the only one that I remember. It is certainly the first Shovovim that I have spent in daily contact with attractive women and girls in an office, and although there are many shmiras einayim challenges every day I don’t find myself lusting much, at least when I am busy.

The Blind Beggar is a character in Rebbe Nachman's story of the Seven Beggars.
If I view a woman as an object, I am powerless over lust, but I don't have to look.
I can guard my eyes.
I want to guard my eyes.
I do guard my eyes.
Why do I say these four lines?

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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 19 Feb 2012 04:44 #133310

obormottel OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1440 Karma: 6	It's my first clean shovavim, too. Keep up the good work!
	Baby steps. If the road is pulling you down, it's a sign that you are going uphill, so just press harder on the gas! Have a great day - unless, of course, you made other plans. Last Edit: by .

Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 20 Feb 2012 11:22 #133356

Blind Beggar OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Not a sexaholic, just trying to be good. Posts: 780 Karma: 12	I'm a Hero Member now!! :D 500 posts! :D :D :D :D :D But I still only have 3 squares. >
	The Blind Beggar is a character in Rebbe Nachman's story of the Seven Beggars. If I view a woman as an object, I am powerless over lust, but I don't have to look. I can guard my eyes. I want to guard my eyes. I do guard my eyes. Why do I say these four lines? Last Edit: by .

Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 20 Feb 2012 11:28 #133358

TehillimZugger OFFLINE Platinum Boarder לבד הנשמה הטהורה Posts: 2446 Karma: 34	Mazel Tov BB! Thanks for the help yesterday and today. Look at me, does it matter how many squares you have? ;D
	?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him? Last Edit: by .

Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 20 Feb 2012 11:45 #133362

gevura shebyesod
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I think if you're a member of the Married grop you always have 3 squares, no matter how many posts you have. That's just the way it's set up.

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וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל

"If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE."
"Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome."
- General Grant

My story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/111583-hello-my-friends

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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 26 Feb 2012 18:59 #133748

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I am still sober according to SA for 338 days.
I just fell off the Wall after 221 days.
I had become complacent and let my TaPhSiC shevua expire.
I was bored and had time to kill on an unfiltered (impossible to do, so forget about it, same thing with WebChaver) computer.
I don't even like porn, I think it is stupid and disgusting, which is why I didn't masturbate, because it is not so exciting for me.
But a fall is a fall.

Anyone want to climb the Wall with me from the bottom?

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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 26 Feb 2012 19:14 #133749

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Notice that you say "I don't even like porn".
I don't like it generally either ~~[well except for specific types...]~~ that's what our sickness does to us, we're just looking for an outlet to air our frustration with life, ourself, g-d and humanity, and our outlet has become porn whether we like it or not, this just demonstrates the addictive qualities in our behavior.

Congrats for the honesty by the way.

?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 26 Feb 2012 19:15 #133750

gevura shebyesod
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I'm sorry for you. i fell a week ago after almost the same number of days. (Not p***, but m*** without finishing.)

Let's truck together.

Gevura!

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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 27 Feb 2012 22:54 #133842

ZemirosShabbos OFFLINE Platinum Boarder pass the compote Posts: 6153 Karma: 72	reb BB you are hereby nominated for the Keep On Trucking Award your honesty is gevaldig p.s. keep on trucking
	Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise ~Inna beshem ZS Give, Forgive ~Cordnoy The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting. ~TZ Last Edit: by .

Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 28 Feb 2012 22:35 #133907

mechazek OFFLINE Gold Boarder men darf alla mohl mechazek zein Posts: 268 Karma: 0	Hi beggar thanks for sharing.You do not like porn but your disease does that is his lifeline.So we have a choice to listen to the disease or call his bluff and act on what we really want.
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 11 Mar 2012 09:00 #134496

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Time for some honesty.
I just spent almost 3 hours searching the Internet for what I do like: women in bikinis and other sexy images that K9 is happy to allow because they are not pornography. I now have Adobe Flashplayer 11 installed on 3 browsers but there is still one video I was not able to get to work. I gained nothing from all that and I had plenty of important things to get done.
I shall post again today or tomorrow, hopefully to tell you that I have been good and clean since this post.
Sunday 10:59 a.m. Meron winter time.