Hi everyone, I have been trapped in the lust trap for close to 25 years. Started at quite a young age, about 9-10, with viewing inappropriate pictures and being mz''l. Turned into a nightly habit, sometimes more than that. As I got older was able to access more graphic content but still tried to stay away from hardcore p. As I matured/went to yeshiva I tried stopping but only was able to cut down, still slipping up every week ore every other week Probably my worst point was when I was learning in Israel and I went to a strip club in Tel Aviv a few times. Then of course I got married and instead of realizing that this ain't going away I decided to keep my head in the sand. Fast forward a couple years and one day my wife catches me. My life is crashing down I am broken. B'H my wife agreed to stay with me as I worked on the issue with a therapist. Things improved somewhat but still cannot get this darn thing out of my life completely. Finally, a few weeks ago I saw an ad in the Lakewood Voice basically saying if you are struggling with leading a double life please call me as I have been there and have a way out. B"h since then I've been in touch with a few people who have been helping tremendously and routed me to GYE. I am seeing now at the end of the day nothing compares to talking to someone who has been in your shoes, I had worked with Rebbeim and therapists before but its just not the same.  I am actually hopeful that there is a way out of this winding precarious trap. Finally!

Shalom! Welcome! 
We each have to walk our own path, but it’s far easier when you’re with friends who understand…

GYE means hope. 
You can break free. There are door open to you. So many threads of folks just like you. Who thought it was impossible. Who are completely clean now. 

You can be that way too. 
Here’s  a warm hand, 

Chaim Oigen

hashemschild14 wrote on 21 Nov 2024 04:17:

Shalom and welcome. 

You'll meet some people (like myself) who walked in the depths of the filth and have managed to climb out. 
Reach out to the wonderful people here who can befriend you and guide you forward and upward. 
Make personals connections and speak to the true fighters who have been given a seemingly insurmountable challenge, but yet they have found a way to win. 
Hashem should give you the strength to fight the battle and win the war. 
You can do it. 

Hi,

You should be super proud of yourself for making that call!  Many people would have seen the same ad and unfortunately not  had the courage to make that phone call but you did because you're b'emes a mevakesh.  Boruch Hashem you're 100% in the right place . GYE is filled with incredible people that have been in your shoes and know exactly what you're going through and can help you all the way.

We're in this together and we are all here to help each other.