I closed and locked the door to my room,

With that foreboding feeling I have come to know.

With my heart and fingers trembling,

And a brand new smartphone, that will do just fine.

Cause my mentor said, this time it will be different,

I’ve thought those words so many times before,

But you’ve got the drive, and you’ll see that you can do it,

I thought alright, Ill try my best once more.

As I left the room and put away the phone,

I felt like turning back right then and there.

As the struggles from the past years filled my mind,

I wondered just how long I will last this time.

I wondered when the fall would be this time,

Thought about how depressing it would be.

And though my friends think I am so shtark, and cool

I’ve really given up on me.

And my mentor said, this time it will be different,

I’ve thought those words so many times before,

I know you try so hard, and I see that you are special,

I said alright, I’ll try my best once more.

My chevra all around me don’t know how I feel,

I’ve learnt to keep my feelings deep inside.

And when I ask a shtarke kasha, they ooh and ahh,

If only they knew how sick I feel.

And I know that all too soon I’ll fall again,

And think, how did my plans fail me once more.

And though its wrong, the nagging thought will cross my mind,

Why did Hashem create someone like me?

I’m now on my phone oh so late at night,

With that sorry feeling I have come to know.

But its empathy for another fella that is like me,

Cause now I’m not calling, I’m the mentor.

And every now and then I see a look in a teen’s eyes,

That reflects the look that used to be in mine.,

And I tell myself no matter what comes my way

I’ll help this teen find his way out of this.

Oh, and I say to him

This time it will be different.

I know that you have heard those words before,

But the time is ripe and I believe that you are special,

He says alright, oh he says alright.

I’ll try my best once more.