guardyouriz wrote on 09 May 2024 02:58:

https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/329691-bipolarmzl#410687
and
https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/329691-bipolarmzl#410692

My struggles as a child were SSA but when I was 12 that changed to acting out on my own. I had an 89-day streak, and then 3 falls within 34 days and then 50 days of my current streak before medicine kicked in and reduced my desire. As I wrote in my post, my struggles were due to negative moods and not strictly to desire in the past two decades. As I wrote in my posts, I learned how to overcome and resolve all my negative moods and I consider myself a free man today.

I am aware that the battlefield will change when my desire will come back to baseline when I change medication, which should probably happen soon, but I already know all the tricks of the trade. I have to be extra careful, because although I am constantly giving others chizuk and I know what to do, I don't have any challenges at the moment, and I might be caught off guard when they come back. I feel like I am still fighting to some degree because I am helping others but this is very different from having the challenges myself. The Battle of the Generation can help. I was regularly reading the e-book until I had a family simcha and then came Yom Tov when I was away and during both of these times I wasn't next to my computer. I am holding at page 345 and I am not so far behind. I am going to get back into the book now, but the excitement of the book isn't as powerful now as when I have real struggles so it doesn't get absorbed as well.

I have to pick it up immediately when desire kicks in and change gears. My mood also changes with a change in medication and I might have to use my techniques more often, especially in the first few months while I am adjusting to my new medication. I expect to have challenges that I will be able to overcome but I have no way of knowing at the moment how powerful those challenges will be.