Thank you for posting this. It's great to know that you are in a better place (in both senses of the phrase) and doing well. You brought a smile to my face.
It's really great hearing you celebrating your success (and that you are having lots of them)

This should be a lesson to all of us that sometimes we just need to pick up, leave the things that are bringing us down and start living again.

Hatzlachah on the new zman

Doing pretty well Baruch Hashem.
Been having moments of feeling worthless, that I have no intrinsic self worth, and that I'm simply the sum of my accomplishments and failures... Working with my therapist to work on that inyan.
Anyway, doing good b'chlall, will be b'kesher.

Hatzlocha chevra!

great to hear from you! Good to see your climbing back up

It is so good to hear from you! We know you are doing the right thing by staying away but we still miss you.

Had a fall. Movin on

fell again motzei shabbos.... Still moving on. Rough times folks, in many ways.

Hatzloha Chevra

Keep strong! 
I hope all is ok.
We really miss you here, but I'm sure you're better off not having access to Internet...

Hatzlacha!

Yes Baruch Hashem Yisborach! It's such a game changer. I had an old kosher phone lying around in my room which has a radio and didn't think would be a problem, but it was... So bh got rid of it and looking forward to investing myself in the intricate and geshmak sugyos of Hashems Torah.

Hey guys, I’m home for a few days and will keep you guys posted. I’m seeing some doctors, it’s been hard on many fronts particularly in the mental health department...

A lot A lot of taiva folks

push through! You know your own strengths and weaknesses and you know you can win this battle its just the yetzer hara wants you to think otherwise.

And yes you want to win and be free because as seen on this forum having a problem with taiva has the power to destroy marriages so you want to be squeaky clean by your wedding.

You were at 200 days which was incredible. You fell and then you fell a bit more. Why don't you get back on the track that you were on? Every time you fall it makes it harder (but still manageable) to get back up but you have it in you to make it back to where you were. Just today I was in the car and thought of something I saw when I was acting out about 100 days ago yet my brain still remembers! Every time you look at new things (speaking to you if thats what youre doing or anyone else reading this) you're adding new images to your head that have the potential to cause future falls when you want to stay clean, not just this one.

You can say "I'm holding at 400 days clean with a month of falls" or something similar but once the falls start coming more and more you no longer are the person you were and it becomes "I was clean for 200 days and since then I haven't been clean for 30 consecutive days over the last year"

Which do you want to be?

Good to hear from you brother.

Consider joining our 90 day challenge - it would be a chizuk for you and for us .

If you can access email In Yeshiva you would be able to stay updated .

Be well

I fell again. It’s very hard with depression, feeling horrible...
My goal is now 14 days. 
 Have a gn

Moving forward. That’s what I’ll say. 
Hopefuly could see the psychiatrist tomorrow and then return to Yeshiva early Wednesday morning. 
Have a gn. Don’t let the number 0 fool you (or myself). I am very much on the road, the path, to Kedusha v’Tahata.
Indeed, my determination is not lost. 

And Mark my words (Markz that’s you!), I will rise.
I will not masterbate anymore.
I will become a Man of Kedusha v’Tahara.
Watch me.

Good night to all,

YeshivaGuy

YeshivaGuy wrote on 11 May 2021 05:39:

Trust me my very special friend, no one at all is fooled by a "0" on your count. We know who you are. We've seen you in action. We know your fight, struggles and glory. We know your past, and we know your future. 

We know who YeshivaGuy is.

We're just waiting for you to see it as clearly as we do.

Hatzlacha!