Very impressive. Shkoyach!

Where are these books? In your house?

YeshivaGuy wrote on 21 Dec 2020 18:31:

Library 

U go there often?

YeshivaGuy wrote on 21 Dec 2020 18:35:

No. Occasionally. Why?

Was just wondering how often the nisayon would arise

Hi Grant,
For me, books are much worse then pictures. The fantasy is unbound. In Pictures, i always find things that turn me off.... So i dont touch any goyishe books anymore. 
The library is not a safe place for me either. neither are any book stores. 

Grant,
for someone with a vivid imagination as yourself, books can be worse than videos or pictures.

I like to read as well and understand the struggle. There is a bunch of decent books available. 

BTW, the story teller finally touched on fiction today. A heimishe meidel wouldn't know to write those things in her journal. What does  lust mean?! What does feeling violated mean?! Isn't it the woman's job to make sure the husband doesn't sin?! 
Just joking on the above. Great writing. Please keep it up.Thanks!!!

lionking wrote on 22 Dec 2020 02:28:

I understand the sentiment about imagination, but pics are way, way worse for me.

Also, it was a book about indecent subjects. A guy writing about his not so nice exploits. (It was in the wrong section) I shouldn't have read it. Now I know that. But the desire for regular books that have literary pornography is also a problem. It's hard to skip those parts when I'm involved with the characters and their emotions. 

R Grant,
We have communicated here and there in various forums,private messages etc. However,tonight I actually took the time to read through your whole thread(well,most of it anyway). I am blown away and awed at your journey. Your honesty and will to succeed is a breath of fresh air! Keep up the good work on your end,but also keep coming to inspire us as well. I have no idea of your age or much else about you. However, I wold like to accept you as my rebbe in these inyanim. Wow!

Lou wrote on 31 Dec 2020 06:20:

Thank you for your kind words. Much appreciated. I'm happy to know my thread can lend inspiration.

Grant is certainly a Rebbi of sorts in this forum. And others as well. Each of the chevra teaches a unique limud - a perspective that no one else can possibly bring. Sorry if I sound so cliche - or as my kids say cringy -  but this is how I see it. I feel as if I have I have known you all for so long (there I go on and on, awkward, mushy and buttery...).

While I can only wish that I had this support as a bochur so many years ago, I am far better off thanking Hashem that I have it now.

Grant, Lou and so many others; thank you!

Ish MiGrodno wrote on 31 Dec 2020 20:28:

This is so true! I was very inspired reading Grant's thread,but in truth his Nisyonos were different than mine.
Just to keep the mushiness going,I truly appreciate your presence on here as well. You provide a different outlook than many others here and I like it!

lionking wrote on 22 Dec 2020 02:28:

Hi Guys,
Yes for me everything is a trigger, pictures, books, even vidoes that may have something, triggers me. 
Any advice ?


Thanks 

eyes wrote on 01 Jan 2021 00:41:

Move to a cave  .

eyes wrote on 01 Jan 2021 00:41:

At day 531 it looks like you have BH figured it out.....  For most of us. it is accept it and move on. the trigger is only an issue if we act on it.