Dear fellow Gye. Members,
I already got a nice welcome since joining this past friday.
I struggled since I was little with masturbation.
at age 22 I started viewing online.
I am now 30 and still struggling on and off with p** and mast..
I was neglected as a child.
so I think lack of love and relationship leads me down this path..

Hello Moish, welcome!
Thank you for sharing, I'm sorry to hear about your troubled childhood...have gone to therapy at all for that? Are you married/single?
Being connected is key to overcoming this struggle. With God's help you will develop meaningful relationships with others here who relate to your struggles. Keep posting!

Just to continue with more details..
I'm  am married with children.
I am improving emotionally.
I am looking for a partner similar to me.
Im heimish-yeshivish

Welcome Moish, stick around and keep on sharing a lot of us have been where you are now and have grown tremendously since


 Love Yankel!

welcome and hatzlacha, i hope you find all that you need  here at gye .if it helps, what works for me is the chizuk email archive they are great!

welcome reb Moish. Hope to hear more from you

Welcome!  Your story is very common.  Your neglect as a child certainly makes a difference. Check out the handbook. 

Have you discussed your neglect with anyone?  Have you gone for therapy of any kind.

Do you have anyone to talk to?  Talking to someone can be very helpful. 

You say that you want a partner similar to you.  That is fine, but don't box yourself in.  This problem affects us all, and you don't necessarily need to speak to someone like yourself.  There are so many different types on this site, and we all struggle, and we all help each other.

 Keep posting. Many have been helped here.   Never ever give up!