חנוכה שמח
How have you been doing the past two weeks? Recently, one thing that has been helping me stay clean was the following:
The last time that I fell, I fell many more times after that over the next number of days. However much time I spent enjoying as I fell, it was still not that much time. Other than those few moments, my quality of life was so much worse overall.
When I'm tempted to look at something passing by
Warning: Spoiler!(yes, I called a woman "something" as opposed to "someone" or "a pretty girl" etc. because when I'm checking out a random girl on the street out wherever, I'm looking at her like a piece of meat - not like a human)
I try to remember that by looking, it's going to ignite sexual desire. In turn, that will push me to sin anywhere from forbidden thoughts - to forbidden actions. That will give me a brief amount of pleasure. After that, I'll feel like absolute garbage for days.
But if instead, I look away for those 5 seconds and ask God to help me - because he made me, he gave me this desire, he put that pretty girl in front of me, so now "please God, help me keep me clean" - and don't fall, then I won't feel like garbage. I'd rather miss the momentary pleasure than suffer the pain of negativity in my life.
In either case, I wish you much success.
On another note, because I'm not sure I understand where you're coming from and I'd love to understand you.
Regarding going to a therapist, do you
- want to go
- Not want to go
- Not really care whether or not you go