hi how are you , well my history and is that im married and i have family but de problem is that when i was 8 years an uncle do to me some bad thing and that happen many until i stopped him but now i like mens i dident do nothing yet but i see many  pornography because i like mens to do things whith them now at this day i feel like a garbage please someone help me

It's definitely a sad story.
Checkout the handbook and start using GYE.
Life is not over yet, You will enjoy the life ahead if you start now doing the right things.
A lot of us here when we came on here were definite that they will never be sober and that no chance for them.
Hatzlucha

Hello brother.
Welcome to the forum and welcome to a place where you can share and grow.
We are here to support you in your journey.
Have you had the chance to speak to a professional (therapist) about this yet properly?
There are many here with similar experiences to yours and they are, like all of us, getting to a better place over time...
As the guys here say Keep on Trucking!
Smile, Hashem loves you!

Welcome. Find solace that many on this forum share your journey. Keep coming back!

Welcome aboard brother! Life is worth living, I've been very far down the road of "life sucks I wanna die" and I discovered how false it is. A big help was therapy (called DBT). HATZLACHA, DON'T GIVE UP! Keep showing up, keep posting!

Welcome,

TheI group is here for you.

Wishin' you hatzlachah in recovery.

Welcome i just joined but its great her and don't forget to keep posting we want to hear that your alright

hatzlacha on your journey to good feelings

there are articles and more for SSA on the website 

you can email me mikefineroth@gmail.com (not my name)

Welcome!  Have you ever spoken to anyone about your trauma?  Either a proffessional or just someone you feel comfortable sharing with?  Keep posting. We are here for you.