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Sometime it may take many falls to get back up... 23 Jun 2015 21:25 #257540

dontevergivein@gmail.com
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Alright...It has been a while since i was on the forum. Its time to get back into it.
I was doing great for a good while, I thought I finally had some freedom. I learned the hard way that I will always remain an addict. After like 20 days i fell...then it was a spiral down hill from there, for the past 2 days i just needed to fulfill that urge. I had to look at some shmutz to be Motzei Zera.

It is really getting tough here. i feel like i am loosing self esteem and confidence.

But, I am now ready to go out it again. i am ready again to post actively on the forum and speak out about my progress. I will iyh make Proper Taphsic Fences and in 2 day from now i intend to start the 90 day challenge. it will be tough but i must get this out of me and finally be free. it is eating me up alive.
i also intend to start listening to the group calls and see what i can gain from this.

I must get rid of this because i am entering the shicduchim spectrum. I MUST TAKE CONTROL. AND I WILL TAKE CONTROL ONCE AND FOR ALL ONE DAY AT A TIME.

Please lets be in touch over here.

Re: Sometime it may take many falls to get back up... 23 Jun 2015 21:34 #257542

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Welcome back

Many of us are here for a while and control is not our middle name.

There are those who possess that.

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Re: Sometime it may take many falls to get back up... 23 Jun 2015 23:00 #257550

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dontevergivein@gmail.com wrote:

I will iyh make Proper Taphsic Fences and in 2 day from now i intend to start the 90 day challenge. it will be tough but i must get this out of me and finally be free.

2 days from now? Something wrong with today?

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Re: Sometime it may take many falls to get back up... 23 Jun 2015 23:24 #257551

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dontevergivein@gmail.com wrote:

But, I am now ready to go out it again. i am ready again to post actively on the forum and speak out about my progress. I will iyh make Proper Taphsic Fences and in 2 day from now i intend to start the 90 day challenge. it will be tough but i must get this out of me and finally be free. it is eating me up alive.
i also intend to start listening to the group calls and see what i can gain from this.

Please lets be in touch over here.

Good strong attitude. So its posting, Taphsic, and 90 day challenge.

Have you done this in the past and has it worked? If you have, you probably need more intervention.

Re: Sometime it may take many falls to get back up... 24 Jun 2015 01:10 #257557

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Re: Sometime it may take many falls to get back up... 24 Jun 2015 01:30 #257559

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Re: Sometime it may take many falls to get back up... 24 Jun 2015 16:27 #257605

gibbor120 OFFLINE Platinum Boarder NEVER EVER GIVE UP! Posts: 5251 Karma: 166	cordnoy wrote: Many of us are here for a while and control is not our middle name. It's actually my first name I learned that I needed to give up control to G-d in odrder to be free. NOT take control (which is a very common sentiment, especially by new members). Trying desperately to be in control is a good part of the reason I could not break free from acting out for over 20 years.
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Re: Sometime it may take many falls to get back up... 24 Jun 2015 16:55 #257614

dontevergivein@gmail.com Current streak: 2 days OFFLINE Junior Boarder Posts: 32 Karma: 4	the reason i mention 2 days is because i want to be a day clean before starting the 90 day... bh started today...doing good so far. i had a talk today with hashem during shachris mentioning my new hachlatos...

Re: Sometime it may take many falls to get back up... 24 Jun 2015 17:24 #257619

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Good luck and great start. It's great that you realized yourself that you can't do this alone, it shows a lot of awareness and personal strength. Its also amazing that when you fell after your last streak that you weren't discouraged from getting help and you moved on. The Shaarei Teshuva writes that you must start new as if nothing happened in the past. You must throw off anything from yesterday an start new on your journey. When you are further down the road you can reflect and do what must do but that's later on.
Keep it up!

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We need to jump off the conveyor belt of life and walk on our own.

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Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.

Re: Sometime it may take many falls to get back up... 24 Jun 2015 20:17 #257648

dontevergivein@gmail.com Current streak: 2 days OFFLINE Junior Boarder Posts: 32 Karma: 4	well i fell. it sucks. i will have to keep my neder that i made...hopefully this will keep me up in the future...her we go again... i wonder will i ever break free of this terrible disease.. i know what the issue is...i am alone all by myself for practically the whole day

Re: Sometime it may take many falls to get back up... 24 Jun 2015 20:43 #257649

abd297 OFFLINE Gold Boarder Posts: 282 Karma: 12	You got to get connected with people. Find things that you like to do and get out and get busy. Find a job, chesed, friend, activity, etc... to fill up your day. Keep pushing through, you are not alone. Good luck and keep posting.
	Let Hashem Do His Job! We need to jump off the conveyor belt of life and walk on our own. You cannot make yourself feel something you do not feel, but you can make yourself do right in spite of your feelings. Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.

Re: Sometime it may take many falls to get back up... 01 Jul 2015 04:40 #258264

dontevergivein@gmail.com Current streak: 2 days OFFLINE Junior Boarder Posts: 32 Karma: 4	Bh i am trying really hard.. i am 2 days clean now bh...keeping in mind the whole marriage and shiduch scene thing really is a helper.. hope to hear from people.