Impressive

Healthy Strong and Focused

wow excellent
you are a real mentor for me
i move daily up and down some notches

GEVALDIG!!!

May you keep on shteiging till 120 yrs.

Thanks for shining in once in a (long) while.

KOMT!!!!

www.whatsmybrowser.org/
(test)

stepstoliving.org/test.php

the.guard wrote:


It is always an honor to have the guard post on my thread, even if it just for a test.

I just edited this post because I noticed it is my 500th post. (Not sure there is any real significance, but for me round numbers are always special)

I guess it is significant that I should be singing the guards praises on such an occasion.
Perhaps the whole needing to find my way to GYE was just for a test.

I think just do it on a nice way if not everything will bust back on u i have experience already with this garbage

If u will not do it on a nice way it will b triple harder 4 u 2 get rid of all the garbage and will back fire u very quickly

I just realized that despite the fact that I have not watched porn or acted out in over a year, and despite that I only a slight urge every once in a long while, to watch porn, I still have a skewed way at looking at women.
I still see them in a sexual way. I still notice different parts of their body and think about them having sex.
It doesn't necessarily arouse me or trigger me to anything worse, and i can usually just move on a few seconds later at most, but the thought is still there.
The truth is i am not completely sure that this is always true nowadays, and it could be only in the situation I am in right now, experiencing all the previous reasons that pushed me to porn as an escape (loneliness, stress, pressure, feeling out of control, overwhelmed, a touch of sadness [albeit much more slight than in the past]) and I should just be proud that i have made it to a point that while in this situation my biggest problem is the above.
With the help of Hashem, the oilam here, and my wife, i have been successful in finding other healthier means of escape or coping and they are definitely helping me right now.
all the best,
una

I thought I saw you the other day.
T'was kinda dark and your head was covered.
I snapped a quick-pic.
Was this you?

Over a year Huh?

You are awesome. May I ask - Do you have a regular time to learn? With significant success that you have, your noble neshama is eternal and thus wants continued growth.
With over a year clean of acting out saying to yourself "I am sober" as miraculous as it is - it won't cut it now. You have a new spiritual cheshbin now. Keep up the recovery most certainly, but move up the spiritual success expectations a notch.
not so different than a guy who was in serious debt - got a proper job finally - but now after a year of success is capable of moving up in the company.
(If of course you are doing this already then ignore the above)

cordnoy wrote:


nope my beard is a bit longer. but i can see where the mistake came from

yiraishamaim wrote:


Yes I have set habits to learn (habits as in certain points of my day as opposed to times)

And in general I have been experiencing tremendous personal and spiritual growth as a result of honestly facing the underlying issues that had been leading me to act out. It has been a wonderful journey. I feel like i am constantly sorting out myself more and more and making a major renovation from the foundations and upwards.

Just wanted to check in and say thanks for your shares.

And me too just saying hello

Serenity and Shlomo, Thank you