GREAT MOVE!!! GOOD START!!! ONWARD!!!

KOT!!!

It's not easy when anxiety and sadness come back; i was spoken with my wife, she was very sad, depressive, because of people who have no respect, because of her mother who thinks she is perfect... Not something too strong, but I don't know how to make with this anxiety; I take it for me, and now consequence is I think to bad things; it's crazy, today in my work, I was very very strong, I ddin't see very beautiful women, same thing in the street, I didn't think to bad things; but this night, after this conversation with her, I don't feel good; I think to bad things; now normally I have to study Houmach, I will try, but I know this not medecine; before I write here, I know I will not have now a response, but to write makes I feel better; I make my study and will write after to say if it 's ok.
God Help me please!

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b'hatzlachah

Hello Chana tova Hatima tova at all!
I m sober since 7 days. But today was not simple.
This morning I went to selihot; this year I came back to selihot, i was happy, but I think that gave me a bit of pride; so this morning, when I came to schul, a man of the office of Nets came an d obliged me to come as they weren't minyan; they have made all selihot with the song, and I didn't want beacuse I like to song, but how refuse to complete a minyan; so I went, but I was irritated, without reasons. And during selihot, thinks to porno came to me; I was disappointed, so disappointed that I cried during selihot.
I make me a reflexion that my techouva is perhaps to oriented to ME, because of my pride, and not enough to God; the day was difficult, fortunatelly i have the filter at work... but i hade bad thinks... but no masturbation, only thinks; it ' s difficult to make so quickly this transformation, I realize that , as Dove say, important is to see that the problem is Me, the Idole of Me. To become less egocentric is so difficult; now, i have difficulty, i want to see bad things, but i can't; to write here makes me feel better (i don't know why i waited the end of the dayt...); i think my second mistake is to think too much to the days after, it makes me afraid; i have just to think to this day; not yesterday, not tomorrow but this day. I leave my work, and i feel better. Thanks to your comments.