joetyh wrote on 24 Jan 2022 09:17:

You can click the the quote button at the bottom of the post that you want to quote.

wilnevergiveup wrote on 24 Jan 2022 12:00:

did this work? cuz i my end it doesnt look like it did

oh well now it did sorry for harrasing

joetyh wrote on 23 Jan 2022 22:05:

depends which post

Trouble wrote on 24 Jan 2022 14:23:

what do you mean?

joetyh wrote on 24 Jan 2022 16:02:

if you spend your time reading my posts, that's good; some of the others - i'm not so sure. gevurah & mbj - a definite yes; rage - nope.

I don't know why I decided to do this, or what gave me the strength, but last night I sent my father the following text....  

"You don't even know how much I appreciate having understanding parents... I don't know why I feel like sending this text but I decided I will.For the past couple of years I've struggled really hard with shmiras einayim and shmiras habris... I've developed terrible habits and I was feeling so guilty and alone. Even when I originally found GuardYourEyes  I wasn't ready and it was not working. BH this year I have reached a point where I was able to confront myself and realize I've got an issue... I got really involved with GYE. I spoke to my Rosh Yeshiva a lot I spoke to my Mashgiach and I came to the conclusion that I'm normal... And I can beat this. I got this amazing mentor from GYE who has explained to me what the proper outlook on sex and intimacy is and how what I have been doing is so detrimental for the beautiful marriage I hope to have BezH at the right time... BezH when I wake up tomorrow morning it will be my first week clean in I don't know how long and it's the first time I believe I can beat this no matter how hard it will be...."

I'm still not sure why I decided to but it felt so good to share it and get so so much support from my loving father. After this I was just sitting in bed crying and crying (for the second time yesterday, good thing my roommate didn't walk in again) I have been waiting and davening for these tears for years!!!!!!!!!

joetyh wrote on 24 Jan 2022 22:16:

To quote my mentor, HHM: HERO!!!!!!!!!!!!
Appreciate every day your understanding and supporting parents. You’ll get through this!

Day Number 8!!!! we pluggin fwd!!!! just told my rosh yeshiva i need a new first seder chavrusa cuz thats what is important in life!!!! 

Day 9!! one day to 10!! than i have a minyan of days to daven with..... B"H I am getting a new 1st seder Chavrusa today so I can fill my head with Torah!!! I need to thank one of the Chasuva guys here (I think his username is constant) for pushing me a couple of weeks ago to go through my filter to make sure it's really filtered for an easily excitable fellow like myself and Zedj for pushing me to make a contract.... It makes it so much easier when triggers dont just by mistake pop up usually.... (not that it's easy but it's B"H easier...)

Unbelievable! keep it up.

TEN DAYS!!!!! TEN DAYS!!!!! I now have a minyan of days!!!! this is insane!!!
yesterday was probably the hardest day so far but we're here now!!! next goal is 14 days but ONE DAY AT  A TIME!!!!
14 days was the longest streak i have ever had in the past 3 or 4 years....

Love this thread your an amazing guy really brave for being so honest i wish i was like that have you ever read the easypeasymethod.org/easypeasy.pdf its a fresh new outlook that could help you and its not just use your willpower i would recommend you read it 
even though its not the best written book i still found it useful cause hey i am on the longest streak I've ever done 67 days but i am not really counting any more cause i am now a NON user!!! YIPEE!!!!!

I was just by a question and answer session and someone asked the following question... "Everyone knows the good strawberry shortcake is always on the women side by the kiddush, is it a problem to walk in and grab a slice and walk out to enjoy it?" The Rabbi (he is not my Rebbi I was just going to hear what he says) was being very general the whole time but he said to this that it is absolutely not allowed. I've been taught here on GYE (unless I'm warping the theory) that if you train yourself not to sexualize women/girls there shouldn't be a problem walking in to grab a slice of cake (assuming it is accepted in that crowd, try doing that in a real chassidishe place you'll lose your head) as long as you're not sitting down with a girl to eat it.... am I wrong? am I missing something?

it wasnt just this question... his whole theory was based off assur assur assur....



I would appreciate thoughts or comments or even criticism on my train of thought....

Day 11!!!!!!  this is crazy