A few months ago... I was alone at work using the computer. I google searched some disgusting images/materials (without entering the actual sites)​...

I approached my frum boss & alerted him to the fact that there's no filter whatsoever on the computer & asked if he'd please have one installed. I also let him know that as per my Rav's psak, I will not be coming in to work until there's a filter in place. That's when he chose to let me know that I don't belong at work because the office is officially closed because of  corona-virus . (  Thanx for choosing to let me know at some point!  ) He wasn't too enthusiastic about the request for a filter which kind of shocked me, saying that the other boss (also frum) needs his access to sports & news sites bla bla bla... It's difficult to get someone down to install a filter during coronvirus lockdown bla bla bla... He called me back 6 weeks later: "Hi, are you planning on coming back or do we need to find a replacement"?
(  Thank you so much again for communicating that the office has opened back up again... a week or two ago...   ) I asked him what's with the filter? He said he checked & there is a filter on the network, but it was switched off for some reason & he turned it back on bla bla bla... But company policy is that the computers are only to be used for work purposes... bla bla bla... (  Again thanx for telling me NOW... until now you'd just ask me whether the mars rover video I'm watching was real or simulated etc... & I am not aware of anyone else in the office who does not use the computer for other things during slow/quiet periods  ) I was recently alone in the office again, (just me & Hashem) & watched some you-tube videos. Yeah, the standards of the producers of these materials correspond to Bilam & Balak... or something like that. IF (a big if) there is a filter, it's a very poor one. And this is a "Frum" "Heimish" Office. Any ideas?

Chaim K. asked me to post his response (he doesn't have access):I am a professional writer .( I dont make a parnassa from it though)Yasher koachYou are amazingly talented!Be greatful and realize ..there is lots of potentially really satisfying work out there for you IYH . As a writer, or in some other area perhapsI mean your next job... ?  ..We could be talking a nice paycheck ..... with  an umlimited supply -.... ...and no more Snapples  !I mean we could  talking .. ...Kambucha ..  Perrier.... IYH at your next job .. ?you could be getting some serious hydration!Seriously , you  are correct and I think that your frum boss is misguidedYou spoke of modern day  Midianite type women and  I think that is well putPorn stars are not my  friends!Pornography is a harmful drugKeep thinking things out thoroughlyKol tuvPS To the staff member at GYE who is reading thisI have a filtered phone .Right now I am not connected to respond like others are andI didnt want to forget to respond to this.Whomever is reading this,  if you could take the time to send this as a response, .. l would really appreciate thatThank youChodesh tovChaim

SWIFT - nice to see you back.

Did you tell your Rav that you have a problem with Walmart too, and the barricade Walmart installed because of COVID isn’t gonna help a guy like you (us)?

the.guard wrote on 20 Jul 2020 21:28:

Hey! Thank you for bringing a smile to my lips  & joy to my soul...
( I'd go for an unlimited supply of coconut water, goji berries & a fully loaded Toyota Corolla XSE...yup, a Corolla @ $30k)
Keep on being Misameiach Klal Yisroel & Thank you again! 

Markz wrote on 20 Jul 2020 23:03:

Hey Markz!
Nope I didn't, I was too embarrassed. Though perhaps if I would have told him, he'd have put me in Cheirim al tnai that I dare go back to Wal-Mart - I think that would keep me on my toes 
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P.S. The Cheirim part brought to mind a past humorous anecdote: Chazal say one must be careful with one's choice of wording in prayer. For many years I made the same two mistakes by rote over & over, I think they were answered as asked:  

• When putting on Tefillin: U'vigviroscha "TATZ'MI'ACH" Oyvei Vekomei... (i.e. "May my enemies SPROUT") 
• In Kiddush Hachodesh: Chay'im "SHEYEISH" Ba'hem Busha U'ch'lima... (i.e. "A life that has in it much embarrassment") 

Additionally, Thank you for the welcome back, It's nice to see that my comings & goings are noticed!  

Swift Eagle wrote on 21 Jul 2020 02:31:

#1.  Make sure to stick around more often :-)
#2. If you give your rabbi the whole picture (not that picture!) he likely would have suggested something else than ‘quit your job’, and what did your wife say about it. 
#3. Oh and lastly - if they do install a filter which at work can’t often be very tightly set, if I was looking for trouble I’d be able to find it, so who are we kidding.

Markz wrote on 21 Jul 2020 03:01:

#1: I most certainly will, after getting my Rav's okay.
#2: I do plan on speaking to him this week Be"H, as I've started slipping again 
#3: I definitely agree, unfortunately I know that myself with my very strictly filtered computer at home. But a good filter at work would still help me avoid triggers when I'm not in a self-destructive mood... 

Love you & all of Klal Yisroel, we are the best of the best! Better than the rest! We are surrounded by monkeys & donkeys who want human rights but at the same time argue that they are mere advanced animals and may therefore do as they please. I guess that's why there are very vocal animal rights groups, they simply don't want to be left out We declare Hashem's oneness day & night, holding on tight for dear life. He in turn declares that just as he is one in all the worlds, so too are we one in the world, he created the universe FOR US ONLY, all the the rest from the microscopic to the cosmic & beyond, is but a backdrop for us & our performance for him. I love you Hashem! Your so kind to us, you created us, you fulfill all our needs with kindness & grace, everything we ever have, every little enjoyment, it's all DIRECTLY from you! You "worry & fret" over us, you are our father & mother & everything else, although I have not a good healthy relationship with my human parents, I can look to you to see what a loving parent means. You know me best, know what makes me tick, where I'll be in the future, in gan eden, gehenim, kaf hakela or simply ceasing to exsist, but while I'm still around I can sing sweet songs to you & revel in your presence so awesomely powerful & strong. Oh! How my soul longs for you, though I've dirtied it so, I can barley feel you or remember you through the thick dirty gloom I've brought upon myself through my beastly actions. I've allowed my Nefesh HaBehami (Animal Soul/Instincts) to overcome, ride/ take control & be the master over my G-dly one.  Oh! Would you bring me back, I've so badly lost track, I've fallen & gotten whacked, your there to bring me back home, from now on, for every day I'm clean & cleave to you, I shall set aside a coin of gold ($1 coin ) to be redeemed when mashiach comes, to donate something special to your earthly abode, but what can I possibly give to you, master & creator of the universe! It's all yours! The most & least I can do is give you myself, to slaughter my selfish desires in your honor, to live beholden to you, for I can never repay you for your endless kindness. Please help us all break through the wall & come back to you with no barriers at all! We need you! We love you! We never ever ever ever want to leave you! Bring us closer to your Torah, light our flame when we pray to you, so that we can climb Jacobs Ladder, from the ground to the heavens. Though many of us are in the tehoim raba, the deepest depths of the waters of passion, held in the grip of deadly whirlpools. But we can laugh it all off, WHEN we have you, because nothing stands in your way. So come rescue us from our juvenile foolishness & rise us up on eagles wings as you have already done by the 1st geulah, you took us out not a second too late, before we fell into the 50th level of tumah & would be lost forever. May I implore you my master?Has our world not yet gone berserk enough to have reached  the 50th? PLEASE rescue us & take us home to our land of old & rise us up to the 50TH LEVEL OF KEDUSHA, PLEASE! We can take no more  SAVE US! SOOTH US! RENEW US! Capture us back from the forces of emptiness, relieve us already of our temptress, slaughter the angel of death before our eyes, please hear our cries! Hear the screams of your anguished people, V'anitzak! I can say no more, I am spent through & through, may you look into our hearts & hear its inner voice. Attach us to you with cords of love & snap our bondage from evil lust... Your "want to be your servant, but cannot truthfully call myself that yet, as I'm still still in the horrible grip of serving my yetzer (evil inclination) rather than my Yoitzer (Creator) 

Oops, it seems like my signing off has become rather long, so I'll sign off again,

Love you & all of Yisroel - Nation of warriors - tremendously!

Swift Eagle