On Erev Yom Kippur "Trying" posted:
This is very hard for me to say, since I'm dead embarrassed. But secrecy keeps strengthening the addiction, so here goes. I fell again last night. Yes, I know it's Erev Yom Kippur. I don't know how I...
A fascinating and beautiful Zohar (Raya Me'heimna) that is read before Tekiyas Shofar in many kehillos:
On Rosh Hashana, Yitzchak (representing the aspect of judgement) calls his son Esav (representing the Satan) and asks him to bring ...
We all know the truth. We all die. We are nothing but flesh, blood, veins and bones; here today, dust tomorrow. Our eyeballs are delicate balls of mushy fluid. And the objects of our desires are also flesh, blood and veins. If we ...
Yom Kippur can only atone for sins that we do Teshuvah for, but if we continue to hold on to the "Sheretz", can we ask Hashem to purify us? Doing teshuvah means "letting go" of the sins, and making fences so that we don't inevi...
Every person on this site, No matter how long they have been clean, no matter how many times they fell, are engaged in fighting their y"h. They are not sitting passively. They don't always win, but they are fighting. And that is ...
I am a few hours away from completing an entire niddah cycle clean... I have not done that once before (in 8 years of marriage)... I know that at (not even) 30 days clean I am still a nobody but I think I may have at least let go ...
I am holding by 22 days clean. Hashem just sent me a really hard test now, but I read what you just sent me (at least five times!), and now I'm feeling better. Thanks. My Rosh Yeshiva said today in the name of R' Yerucham, that we small...
A few months ago when I was reading the testimonials, I cried, because I was 100% sure that I would never be able to write one of those, and that I was be living in the grasps of giluy arayot and the yetzer hara for the rest of...
Dear Chevra (and especially Guard), The Rosh Hashana that I just had is incomparable to any other that I had experienced in the past. I still have a very long way to go, but I felt that I have at least an opening in my life with which ...
I heard a special thought about Teshuva that I feel is exemplified by all of you on the GuardYourEyes forum. On Yom Kippur, we read the story of Ninveh. Yona tells Ninveh that Hashem has decreed that Ninveh be overturned. The potential meaning of this was twofold. Either ...
I want to thank you for your work here. Only a few months ago, my life was full of such pain and I had no idea where to turn. The past yom kippors had such dread because I knew that there was little I could do. Today I got to 50 days ...
These days we say Avinu Malkeinu. One of them is: "Batel Machshavos Soneinu - eliminate the thoughts of those who hate us". First of all, this is clearly a reference to the Yetzer Hara as well, who hates us and wants to kill ...
Last week I heard R' Tzvi Meir speak. He spoke about the idea that davka because the power of these days is so strong, the Yetzer Hara really works overtime. Chazal say very clearly that we can get close to Hashem during the as...
On Yom Kippur we ask forgiveness for what we have done; not who we are. Our sins (or our S elf-I mposed N onsense) are the actions that get in the way between us and G-d. There are certain things about our personalities that gi...
The Michtav Meliyahu explains (in the new sefer on Rosh Hashana pg 137): The avodah of Malchiyos is not enough to subjugate everything we do to Hashem's will by just not doing any sins, but rather we should have no self-will other tha...
The main avodah of Rosh Hashana is Kabalas Ol Malchus Shamayim - Accepting the yoke of Heaven. This is why Malchiyus is recite in Kedushas Hayom. The sanctity of the day is Malchiyus, and this is our main avodah. And the heavenly judgement i...
We all love reading Uri's posts on the forum. Not only do they make a great read, but they are written passionately and from the heart. Somehow, Uri's posts talk to everyone's Neshamos. I think it is appropriate to bring two of his bea...
Rosh Hashanah is almost here and I think it's time for each of us to address a very basic question: "Who am I?" Sometimes you feel like a good person. Perhaps more often, you feel like a bad person. Sometimes you feel successfu...