I am a few hours away from completing an entire niddah cycle clean... I have not done that once before (in 8 years of marriage)... I know that at (not even) 30 days clean I am still a nobody but I think I may have at least let go of the "sheretz" and I am ready for the mikva... THANK YOU GYE, THANK YOU GUARD, AND THANK YOU EVERYONE ON THIS FORUM.... I don't know what Hashem has in store for me this Yom Kippur, but for the good people at GYE I'm sure it's going to be all sweetness...