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Reading the White-Book

GYE Corp. Thursday, 09 February 2012

I'm in middle of reading the White Book that Reb Guard sent as a link in the Chizuk email. It is one of the most incredible things I have ever read. Every bit of it I read, I keep getting the chills.

I'm reading about this man who describes his descent into the world of lust and I realized - The only reason I haven't crossed the line from p*** and the imaginary world to worse sins, is that it feels to me to be an unacceptable line to cross, as I still consider myself a "good Orthodox boy". But my "barrier" can only hold up for so long. I felt it getting weaker and weaker, especially this last little while. That made me start to introspect and reach out for help. Reading this man's story makes me thank Hashem and his messengers (the people on this forum) that I didn't sink lower.