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I want to share that GYE has been most helpful and beneficial in my recovery process. The problem resides in the battlefield of the mind, and I used to find myself in the middle of the battlefield with no protection whatsoever to this ailment, nor any kind of weapon to confront this horrible habit. But GYE has given me protection, a full five inches armor on me, and also weapons, powerful weapons to obliterate this enemy. The difference is trying to hit a nail with your bare hand or having a good hammer. With the hammer it's easy, with your bare hands you hurt yourself. That's how much GYE makes it easy to hit the nail, time after time. Thank you for all resources and tools, they have made a world of difference for my struggle!

In response to the article published in Issue #1219, we have received the following: This is a great topic. Thank you so much for covering it. I've been sober in SA for over 5 months now, and I was always scared of going to a meeting. I imagined I would meet all my close...

People who have special neshamos CONNECT to GuardYourEyes, almost like a magnet. It's like a breath of fresh air, of reality, of purpose. When I first found GYE, WOW was I on a high. For 2 months I could not stop smiling around the house. My wife was concerned I was on drugs or seeing a psychiatrist and not telling her. Really. It's just the total Ahavas Yisroel and idealism here, and to boot, a solution to my nagging clinging Yetzer Hara who I've never been able to shake off for too long.

Welcome aboard this holy site, my name is Noorah B'Amram and I wish to tell you that Guard's Handbooks are everything he says - and then some!! (I've gone thru them more then once). I'm on the 90 day wall of Honor and the forum to post my progress, fears, hopes and prayers. To me this a great motivator and you may want to consider it too.

Every person on this site, No matter how long they have been clean, no matter how many times they fell, are engaged in fighting their y"h. They are not sitting passively. They don't always win, but they are fighting. And that is ...

Thank you for everything!! There are simply no words. I wish there were, then I could say them. So for now, thank you is going to have to be enough.

Keep the chizuk coming! It is literally lifesaving medication for some (including this humble writer!) Bl"n I pledge $180 in 2 payments via money orders. All the love in the world together with my deepest prayers for you and yours! You are inscribed in the Book of Life because you are the Book of Life itself!!!!

I have been spending a lot of time on the site and felt maybe I was neglecting some things that I need to do for parnasa. But in truth, were I not spending the time here, I'd be spending double the amount of time on p**n. I feel so remorseful for the times I told my good and honest wife that I was 'stuck at work' 'in the middle of something' 'coming soon', when I was really feeding my own selfishness. If I were 21 again, I would have hoped to join a forum like GYE and save myself many years of pain and heartache.

I carry GYE around with me, literally in my pocket. This, for me, has been instrumental in fighting my addiction. "Shvisi Hashem l'negdi tamid" - the principal idea is the first thing brought down in the shulchan aruch for a reason. When I acted out I would consciously or subconsciously push, hide, or ignore Hashem. How else can we view those images on the screen for hours on end? Today, I may not be at the level of "shevisi Hashem" but I can tell you that "shevisi GYE l'negdi tamid" has been a lifesaver.

Hi. I have a mainstream yeshiva background and have been in kollel for a few years. I can give shiurim on the sefer taharos hakodesh or maybe reb nachman's seforim to your members, if you think that would help. I have, B"H, with your help, been clean now for a few weeks. I had the most beautiful davening in Uman where I davened for everyone at GYE. I finally felt I could mean when I said, "this year will be different" and I want a life of ruchniyos and not lust. Hopefully this year will be the first that I stay clean past Hoshana Rabba.

Hi, I'm x-addict here, wow, my journey's been a long hard one, I'm up to 80 days now, I want to fly to Israel to make a le'chaim in your house on 90 days, I'm being serious, I want to meet you! You have changed my life, 80 days!!! I've given so many people inspiration, I'm speechless, because I'm a massive chevraman and people except me to be doing x y z, and to hear that I'm not, makes them also not want to. Your dearest talmid, B.L.Y London, England

There are no words to describe all of you who frequent GYE. Looking through the forums and letters, I am flooded by feelings of awe and respect for all of those who have taken on this task. One thing that stands out above all, is the ongoing perseverance which is so apparent in all those who write on these forums.

This shabbos I found a Zohar (brought down in the Ohr Hachaim Hakadosh Devorim 15:7) which says: "If one congregation or gathering will awaken with Teshuvah, then immediately the son of David will come" I ask you, dearest friends - is this not referring to the GYE forum? Awaiting Moshiach's imminent arrival!

"I started here just a few months ago, after 20 years of addiction. I too thought this was just another "strategy" in the long list of strategies that I have tried. Obviously, they all failed. But you will see, GYE is not only about strategy. We can all get real recovery here. YOU CAN GET BETTER!"

I'm slowly but surely replacing my addiction to lust with my addiction to this forum. Yup, I believe I'm officially a GYE addict.

I read through the handbook last night for the 1st time and have found lots of great tools. Now I will start working through the handbook again more slowly, step by step. I am now seeing that there are blessings in this addiction, for example: the need to truly surrender to HaShem. By nature I'm a fighter, but that is all in my own strength. This is one battle that I now realize I cannot win on my own. Thank you again. I can say that I am now looking forward with hope to be drawn closer to HaShem.

It feels so good to be clean, now I can really focus on so many other things without the guilt or stress of having just fell. My learning since I've been clean has been on a whole new level, and I'm being serious, the Gemara is much clearer and I'm able to retain much more information than I knew I could. Thanks Reb Guard and this whole beautiful family of Jews. Keep up the fight guys! We are bringing the Ge'ulah.

Since I started this journey, I've been less numb... I'm starting to feel a little like Pinocchio in a way, turning from wood into a real live boy...