Recovery

With the help of my Higher Power who has kept me sober for over a year, I’d like to speak about what it was like for me, what my year looked like, and how things are now. How it was I thought I had hit bottom so many times. At every point of my life I never thought it could get worse, but then it...

; I came to this site by accident, of sorts. Yes, there were several decades of filth and smut in my days, but I always stopped, at least for a week or two, or more. Recovery and lack thereof did not consume my life. I was fine with the pattern. Of course, yamim noraim (mostly), I'd cry and beg ...

; I am 50 years old, married, and in recovery for four years. I had ;been addicted to porn since my early teens, but didn't realize that I had a problem with it until my late ;20's. By my late 30's I realized that I had a serious problem, but it wasn't until my mid 40's that I was able to identi...

I am a 30 year-old Chassidic man who learns in kollel. Ever since I can remember, I have always been obsessed with desire for women of every type, denomination and variation. Over the years, I would masturbate in hiding. Gradually, it got worse and I started getting involved with porn on the inte...

Hello, GYE! I'm so excited for having reached this point and experiencing the cleanest, most honest and most growing 3 months in my entire life, or whatever I called "life" before now. Death, perhaps. What helped me? The forum. The dedicated, constant posters, moderators and Dov, for always-ope...

; An email we received from a wife, Jan 1, 2016: My husband is in a leadership position in our community. We are currently married 20+ years. The "perfect" couple, totally "in love." In year 16, i caught him with porn. He confessed, wanted to get out, but didn’t know how to break free. He was v...

; I’m starting school again tomorrow ;- very nervous, anxious and afraid despite the fact that I left on a really good note. I decided to take some time out and reaffirm to myself who I am and what I’m doing here. I also have a colleague who I have to work closely with but who is very difficult ...

I've been on Guard Your Eyes for some time now, working on myself and my shmirat Einayim. Over the past 5 years, I have had over 3 years clean. However, that mean I have been falling for at least 2 years. But I never give up. After every fall and relapse, no matter how many times or how long it l...

; I have close to 9 months sobriety, and I want to share this true story with you. ; I had a job interview today, and, at the end of the interview, the CEO of the company gave me the job. The job is due to start next week. I was really up for taking him up on the offer, until I realized that on...

; Dear Chaveirim, Lag Ba'Omer is a wonderful day on the Jewish calendar. ; For me, it is a very special milestone, as I am now, as of Lag Ba'Omer 5776, seven years clean, b'Ezras Hashem. I have had amazing Hashgacha regarding my anniversary dates. ; The day when I was three years clean (May 18, ...