Exodus from The Mitzrayim of Lust

by GYE Member (See all authors)

I want to share this thought while I am feeling a massive urge to go back to my old ways. I am 9 months in recovery.

In the past, when I used to feel stressed and anxious - which caused me to feel vulnerable - I would turn to "adult entertainment," which I thought would bring some enjoyment in to my life. But since I joined the GYE I have learned that not only was it not fun, but I was causing damage to myself and others around me. How stupid could I have been. I was locked away in LUST PRISON!!

So now, when I want to go back to my old ways, I FIND MYSELF SMILING at such stupidity. This does not take away the fight but it's a realization that going back to this "fun" is the silliest thing to do and is not in the range of a normal person.

So thanks to you guys, I now know that when I feel like "I can't anymore!" I need to turn to Hashem and deal with my problems. As only He can help me, I cannot do this myself.

May we all be free this pessach from the "lust mitzrayim." Now, that's true freedom!