Sunday, 03 September 2017

Saved once again

By Lomdei Chesed

by GYE Member (See all authors)

Today on the train

Traveling back home again

After spending a successful vacation

In the mountains, in relaxation

Feeling rejuvenated and full of energy

To face life, get into routine readily

At a moment least expected

Caught unaware, now being tested

Thoughts flooding, flashing for attention

An urge, a trigger, a temptation

Who will know my thoughts, where my mind goes?

It won’t really be wrong if nobody knows

Excuses multiplying, drowning all sense

I know one thing, one desire which is immense

Racing closer to the edge, slipping dangerously

No consideration for the months of struggle previously

Mind clouded, being pulled in one direction

One that leads to emptiness and destruction

Out of the depths and roiling emotions

Emerges a cry, a plea desperate for direction

The truth of my inner desire to remain pure

Calls out from the confusion to Hashem to implore

‘Help me please, I can’t do this alone at all,

I’m on the verge, please stop me before I fall’

Miraculously He plants an idea in my mind

Listen to music, a distraction to find

Focusing deeply on the song, its words and meaning

Reawakened the will not to fall, strengthened the feeling

Continued concentration, the message absorbed

The ground became more steady, my vision cleared

The heat passed, gone was the urge

Back in safe territory, back from the verge

Thank You Hashem for Your continued guidance and protection

I owe it all to You, this time, in the past and all future temptations