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Re: Holy In Jerusalem 13 Jun 2025 04:47 #437316

I feel like a baby, just in an adult version.

A baby cries. It can't express what it wants so we stuff it's mouth with a pacifier.

Life throws it's hardships I can't express the feelings, so I feed myself the pacifier.

Thank God it's not porn but it's a hell a lot of searching for something to feed my lust and ending with ejaculation.

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Re: Holy In Jerusalem 13 Jun 2025 14:25 #437323

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Welcome back my friend! We've missed you here...
I'm so sorry to hear that the journey is still bumpy.
It's tough. You're feeling מיואש. I feel your pain.
Remember though how much Hashem loves you and ישועת ה' כהרף עין..
Hopefully sometime soon you'll suddenly find the power to get this beast under control.

Keep us posted with the ups and the downs!

Wishing you a gut Shabbos,
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My favourite resources:
1. "זאת בריתי". hebrewbooks.org/56572 (PM me for a sharper version)
2. "שערי גדולה". hebrewbooks.org/48344
3.  guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation

My journey: Emunah struggles, Celebrating a fall, I'm fed up(main thread), I'm drowning, Tips for Shmiras Einayim.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 13 Jun 2025 15:43 #437326

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I can really relate to that feeling, I get it too many times. The negative emotion that drives us to lust can seem so foreign to us, so hard to understand, let alone express in any cohesive or productive way. I've been working for years to be able to articulate and still have a hard time very often.
But this understanding you have, that there is a lacking inside that is woken up when life gets stressful, and that drives you to lust, is so powerful even before you have any knowledge of the specific mechanism. With this knowledge you have the power to choose a response to the lacking, rather than just letting your body's default reaction occur.

The road to freedom doesn't have signs telling you how long until your there.

It sounds like your closer than you think.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 18 Jun 2025 18:31 #437583

I did something stupid the other day. Basically opening up a whole new can of worms. Something that can be the beginning of a spiral down hill. So why'd I do it? It's a good question.

I masturbated way too much in the last few days.

#InADarkPlace

SSSL's Story (Google Doc)​ [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.]
Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread)

Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com.
My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 18 Jun 2025 18:52 #437584

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stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 18 Jun 2025 18:31:
I did something stupid the other day. Basically opening up a whole new can of worms. Something that can be the beginning of a spiral down hill. So why'd I do it? It's a good question.

I masturbated way too much in the last few days.

#InADarkPlace

I'm sorry brother. Here's a hug from across the ocean.
Be well and be safe.
Hoping some light shines through for you soon, and for all of Klal Yisroel.

Kol Tov
Today is yesterday's tomorrow.
The yetzarim a person has the most trouble dealing with are his most powerful God-given tools for developing his potential and achieving shleimus.
It doesn't matter how big the number is, only that today it is going up by one.
There is no "just" when it comes to lust.

Please feel free to reach out. I'd appreciate connecting with you (via GYE, email, or phone - whatever floats your boat)
A little about me: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/412971-I-Want-to-Help-Others
Last Edit: 18 Jun 2025 18:52 by BenHashemBH.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 25 Jun 2025 02:01 #437882

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Not perfect yet, but a changed person 180 degrees
If you think you know who I am, and want to reach out for further chizzuk, I have nothing to hide in real life and would love to share my ESH with you

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 30 Jun 2025 03:42 #438113

I guess it isn't fair to just report when things are sour.

Thank god I am doing pretty good lately.

Sincerely,
StopSurvivingStartLiving

SSSL's Story (Google Doc)​ [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.]
Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread)

Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com.
My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 30 Jun 2025 15:38 #438132

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Thank you for this post.

Your positivity helps me too....
We're in this struggle together; feel free to reach out! 
My email is currently down, and I don't have access to it right now. 

Feel free to call/text! (908) 251-9590 (google)

Check out my thread here: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/413043-My-ENTIRE-story#413043

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 30 Jun 2025 16:44 #438145

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as they say "Trach't git vet zein git"

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 30 Jun 2025 23:25 #438178

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Glad to hear, my friend!

KOMT!
Feel free to reach out and say hi!
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