Bh had a great shabbos and a great past week. This past week was pretty much a breeze didnt look at anything on the street etc. And  Bh no major urges. I know that its prob a beginners high but that doesnt stop me from davening to hashem "al tavianu lo lidai nisayon" And hope that this coming week will bring the same results! thanks again to my amazing mentors!

Bh great start to week 2. no major urges, and places and times that where triggering and I never stood a chance before, at this moment there not affecting me thanks to accountability and a new mind set. Thank you Hashem. This is the first time in my life that I see the possibility of getting out of this mess. Hoping to only post good news bez"h! Thank you for listening

BH another great day yesterday without any big nisyonas even though I had to go out of the frum area of yerushalyim. Im holding on day 10 and 25 on P. I wouldve thought that the first changes I would start feeling would be in yiddishkeit, learning, davening...but havent felt to much yet. But I have noticed something interesting since I started Im feeling much better about myself as a person and also the way I see others. Things that till now might have irked me a little, I find funny now... I think I finally understand the words of the beditchever that when you see a fault in others, your really looking in a mirror and seeing your own faults. I now understand that the way you feel about yourself affects the way you see others. Just a machshava! thanks

The longer you're clean and removed from seeing yourself in a negative light, the more objective you'll be about your own faults.... it's amazing to see you, how you are revealing more and more of your beautiful self through this precious avoda.... onwards and upwards, Dave!

With a heart overflowing with brotherly love,
Muttel

Reb Dave, You are a true inspiration jumping right in with the perfect attitude, Love it!

KOMT

Hi just an update im on day 28 from P and day 13 from M. Had an interesting past couple days. I went to meron yesterday I was so excited to go while im clean for this long and daven my heart out, but that didnt happen. I was able to get to the kever for a while but no connection happened. I was pretty upset but the music and dancing helped along. then I came home at past 3 in the morning after being out of the house for 14 plus hours. Was extremely exhausted woke up pretty early today and was not feeling good about myself. every women that past me even though Im keeping my eyes down its still enough to make a pit in my stomache. I called HHM and he gave me chizzuk for 20 min. Then I went home and had to rock my baby to sleep in a dark room and THE GATES OPENED I started bawling while rocking my baby to sleep and was able to find the connection I was seeking I davened for myself and all of us here that so badly want to get out of this struggle and IYH bezchus hatanna R Shimon we WILL all see our yeshua!! Hope I can stay strong and report only good news after shabbos!

You never know when the gates open!

I am in yerushalayim for Shabbos in case you would like an in person hug motzai Shabbos. Just shoot me an email.

Wishing you continued success
Vehkam

Dove and Vehkam, Please stop making us all jealous.

But A lichtige Shabbos anyway;)

Bh thanks to my conversation with HHM shabbos was a breeze. Im holding 30 days since ive watched P and 15 days from M. 
Today im feeling under the weather hope it doesnt affect my mood...