Woahh, this morning was a really close call!

I had to reopen an old, half-broken laptop to search for some old files, and the filter wasn’t working anymore. Naturally, (I hope that one day, I’ll be able to feel safe even when there’s an unfiltered device in the same room as me) I started searching for porn,

i reach a point when I saw that in my mind, I had already given up and reached the point of "Oh well, whatever happens, happens."

But with a lot of help from Hashem, I received a message from my wife at that exact moment, and everything stopped instantly —I managed to close the laptop.

masturbation Day 55 clean!!
Pornography Day 0 ! 

You do your best to overcome your YH, and you'll experience an extra dose of סייתא דשמיא. It's a kiss from Hashem. Enjoy it and take it as a compliment. בדרך שאדם רוצה לילך מוליכין אותו !!!!! KOMT !!!!!!!!!!

And here we go again with a new attempt
 Day 4 clean !!

Day 5- 6 clean !! 

Day 7-9 clean !!

Day 9 - 12 clean !!

I had some serious difficulties with my wife recently. The past few days have been really tough, and I felt like escaping with porn. But I just realized that doing so would create a deep sense of self-disgust, on a situation that's already complicated. 
When I have something really important to protect or build, it's easier to stay strong and not falling in porn and masturbation. Need to find a way to always keep something meaningful in front of me, something that matters more than the addiction  so I don't fall back into it.