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Re: Holy In Jerusalem 18 Feb 2025 20:48 #431570

Got a hold of some porn. Wasn't good enough for me and I was desperate for more. I couldn't find. My heart was racing. Went to the bathroom and masturbated. So I fell!

Trying not to let it get me down. I am feeling very down.

SSSL's Story (Google Doc)​ [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.]
Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread)

Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com.
My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 18 Feb 2025 22:02 #431578

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Dear SSSL,
I'm so sorry about your fall. Its so painful.
Watching the way you have been fighting though is an inspiration!! You're a hero!
Over the past months, what techniques have been most successful? What empowers you to overcome temptations? What was different at times when you managed to have longer streaks?
Also, have you been in touch with HHM to create a clear action plan?

With love and admiration, 
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1. "זאת בריתי". hebrewbooks.org/56572 (PM me for a sharper version)
2. "שערי גדולה". hebrewbooks.org/48344
3.  guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation

My journey: Emunah struggles, Celebrating a fall, I'm fed up(main thread), I'm drowning, Tips for Shmiras Einayim.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 19 Feb 2025 09:40 #431621

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stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 18 Feb 2025 20:48:
Got a hold of some porn. Wasn't good enough for me and I was desperate for more. I couldn't find. My heart was racing. Went to the bathroom and masturbated. So I fell!

Trying not to let it get me down. I am feeling very down.

Here’s a hug, brother…. I’m feeling your pain…..

Muttel
We're in this struggle together; feel free to reach out! 
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Re: Holy In Jerusalem 19 Feb 2025 13:42 #431637

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stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 18 Feb 2025 20:48:
Got a hold of some porn. Wasn't good enough for me and I was desperate for more. I couldn't find. My heart was racing. Went to the bathroom and masturbated. So I fell!

Trying not to let it get me down. I am feeling very down.

Been there, done that...
But tomorrow is another day.
When 2 yidden get together, it is two nefesh elokis (godly souls) against one nefesh hebehamis (animal soul)
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Re: Holy In Jerusalem 19 Feb 2025 14:50 #431644

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stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 18 Feb 2025 20:48:
Got a hold of some porn. Wasn't good enough for me and I was desperate for more. I couldn't find. My heart was racing. Went to the bathroom and masturbated. So I fell!

Trying not to let it get me down. I am feeling very down.

 Ouch.
That hurts.

But the main thing right now is to get right back up and keep trucking.
Thanks to gye, I turned my life around.
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Trying to get something out of p or m is like trying to find something in this spoiler
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Re: Holy In Jerusalem 19 Feb 2025 17:31 #431669

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m111 wrote on 19 Feb 2025 13:42:

stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 18 Feb 2025 20:48:
Got a hold of some porn. Wasn't good enough for me and I was desperate for more. I couldn't find. My heart was racing. Went to the bathroom and masturbated. So I fell!

Trying not to let it get me down. I am feeling very down.

Been there, done that...
But tomorrow is another day.

Been there, done that...
But RIGHT NOW  is another day.
May you slide down the banister of happiness and get many splinters of success up your career

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Re: Holy In Jerusalem 20 Feb 2025 20:36 #431775

masturbated

SSSL's Story (Google Doc)​ [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.]
Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread)

Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com.
My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 20 Feb 2025 23:04 #431785

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Sweet short and to the point,  brother I feel you, don't let yourself have even one more look cause of it just stay strong for all your followers and admires!!!!
Feel free to call me 7325230152[google voice]

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 20 Feb 2025 23:57 #431789

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I'm really impressed and respect that you're posting, I've never had the courage to do that from this situation. I'm davenning for you, it's the least I can do since you've come through to help me as well. It's your Zechus that I'm moving forward. Please forgive me if I've written anything wrong, I'm still new to this. Wishing you only Hatzlocho

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 21 Feb 2025 04:34 #431805

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stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 20 Feb 2025 20:36:
masurbated

Just pick yourself up, and keep going. 
Don't let your falls get to you. 
KOT, warrior.
Thanks to gye, I turned my life around.
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Trying to get something out of p or m is like trying to find something in this spoiler
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or this one
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Re: Holy In Jerusalem 21 Feb 2025 14:17 #431818

Day 1 Clean!

Good Shabbos,
From someone very distant from his feelings.

SSSL's Story (Google Doc)​ [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.]
Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread)

Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com.
My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 22 Feb 2025 23:48 #431850

I was debating if it make sense to come here tonight to report another fall, but I decided to do it.

I was feeling a little horny tonight. I decided to chat dirty. This leading to masturbation in the shower.

Thanks for listening and allowing me to hang my dirty laundry in public. Greatly appreciated!


I am in a situation that someone was magdir as an emotional shutdown. Basically meaning that my emotions are off. If anyone has any experience with this or some sort of advice, please reach out. Thanks.

A Dark Soul,
Emotionally Shutdown

SSSL's Story (Google Doc)​ [You will need to request permission, which I'm happy to give.]
Holy In Jerusalem (My Thread)

Feel free to say hi or send some chizuk over @ stopsurvivingstartliving2024@gmail.com.
My google voice number got shut down, so I won't be able to receive or send messages from there.

Re: Holy In Jerusalem 23 Feb 2025 00:06 #431851

stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 22 Feb 2025 23:48:
I was debating if it make sense to come here tonight to report another fall, but I decided to do it.

I was feeling a little horny tonight. I decided to chat dirty. This leading to masturbation in the shower.

Thanks for listening and allowing me to hang my dirty laundry in public. Greatly appreciated!


I am in a situation that someone was magdir as an emotional shutdown. Basically meaning that my emotions are off. If anyone has any experience with this or some sort of advice, please reach out. Thanks.

A Dark Soul,
Emotionally Shutdown

I'm sure HHM had experience how bout' hitting him up?
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