שבע יפול צדיק וקם wrote on 15 Jul 2025 13:13:
Good morning, all.
The main difference between this current attempt is that I am firm about my geder to refrain from leisurely Internet use when I am alone. That means no news, no LinkedIn feed, no topics of interest, and no videos. I am not forbidding myself from ever checking any of that out. Just not while I am alone. When I do so, alone, I let my guard down. I start seeing images that are triggering or I get comfortable in a familiar space of searching to find whatever is on my mind. It doesn't mean that I automatically will search for pornography, but it is almost always the first step towards pornography.
Because of this shift, I have gained 33 days free of pornography. I have been far more productive at work. I have been able to complete more chores around the house. I have been more consistent with exercise, lost weight, and am more toned. I feel closer to G-d.
Day Count: 21 Days
No 'P' Count: 33 Days
Cumulative Count: 1691 Days
Congratulations on reaching 33 days - that's a significant milestone that shows real strength and commitment! Your insight about the connection between leisurely internet use and vulnerability is incredibly valuable. Recognizing that pattern and taking decisive action to break it demonstrates genuine self-awareness and wisdom.
The ripple effects you're experiencing - increased productivity, better physical health, spiritual connection, and accomplishment in daily tasks - are powerful reminders of how this one change can transform multiple areas of life. Your approach of not completely forbidding yourself but setting clear boundaries around when and how you engage shows a mature, sustainable strategy.
Keep building on this momentum. Each day you're proving to yourself that you have the strength to make difficult but important choices. Your future self will thank you for the discipline you're showing today. Stay strong!
