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After the pink cloud 20 Nov 2022 01:56 #387979

  • hopefulposek
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So I started aiming for 90 days again, the first two weeks were prettty easy, almost no urges and the small ones that came I used my plan and it was a piece of cake. Then in the beginning of week three my wife became a niddah.
I feel like I'm going insane, I'm constantly in a state of urge, even without any direct cues. I've started spending more time sleeping because at least when I'm asleep I don't have to fight the urge.
B"h I did just get a new filter which is super tough blocking all pictures and almost any website (not just inappropriate ones), so even when I go onto my computer to try to look at images I am stopped. then after ten minutes of trying I'll stop myself leave.
there are some times it's easier, if I'm distracted with something else, especially when learning or reading, and I have been able to exercise a bit which I think helps but it's hard to tell.
I'm just feeling very much the self control fatigue.
Hoping I can make it another week and then things will get easier.
Any advice and chizuk would be greatly appreciated.
"Greatness is forged in battle" - Reb Yerucham Levovitz
My Journey - https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/399197-On-the-way-Again

Re: After the pink cloud 20 Nov 2022 02:16 #387983

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B"h I did just get a new filter which is super tough blocking all pictures and almost any website (not just inappropriate ones), so even when I go onto my computer to try to look at images I am stopped.

Which filter? Netfree?
Guys the only way were really gonna get help is with H’s help so we gotta beg him for help and he sure will help us cause he wants us helped!!
CRY TO HIM!!
https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/2-What-Works-for-Me/387630-Powerful!#387630

Feel free to pm me!

Re: After the pink cloud 21 Nov 2022 02:25 #388037

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techloq. I chose the restricted setting which seems to block almost any website, not sure what the algorithm is. My wife has the passcode the request access to a site, so if I ever need one and she's home I can get to the things I need, but even then there is a skin filter blocking images so there aren't really and triggers.
"Greatness is forged in battle" - Reb Yerucham Levovitz
My Journey - https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/399197-On-the-way-Again
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