Don't be nervous. That's what the yetzer hara wants. Let's be logical, if you are living well without it for 14 days that means it is simply not necessary. We must eat drink and sleep. That's it. One can live a fulfilling happy life without any of this garbage. Keep it up tzaddik.

The reason im nervous is because im having a hard time with other things in my life rights now. The past 2 weeks ive held back from masturbating but a big motavation was the excitement. Every day felt like a huge accomplishment on the way to 14. I feel like day 15 through 25 is going to be non exciting, which will make it alot harder not to choose the easy soothing route. 

Human being wrote on 16 Jan 2022 15:22:

Yea makes a lot of sense.. It’s tricky when excitement fades if that’s what was keeping us going.. when one has clarity it makes everything much much easier. We start to fight a winning battle! How about figuring out a way to maintain a long term constant clarity of why you wanna continue this battle no matter what.. that will be the biggest helpful motivation and will keep your eye on the prize even in hard moments. when one has clarity and motivation that makes the fight much easier this doesn’t necessarily mean we’re excited.. often we’re not excited to take a shower let’s say.. but we usually go anyway cuz we’re clear that it’s beneficial we have a clarity that that’s what we want! Same goes for here. I have some ideas if you’d like.

Human being wrote on 16 Jan 2022 15:22:

So make a goal that you are going to celebrate Purim as a clean fellow. Imagine how exciting that would be. That's true mechiyas Amalek! (As an aside, and i know it's still in the future, but keep in mind to be careful with drinking on Purim. Many newly clean guys slip when they are under the influence....)

15 days clean BH! Had a wet dream last night which makes me feel a little down but ill be ok. Also general lowering of excitement, but im only 15 days away from 30!! Tommarow ill be over the halfway point to 30!

Btw i bought 3 rolls of sushi to celabrate 2 weeks 

dont let it get you down. its normal

Human being wrote on 17 Jan 2022 14:53:

Excellent that you understand the need to celebrate - it shows a healthy way of viewing this challenge.  Wet dreams are to be expected when breaking free. In fact, they are good news - as long as one was not lusting the whole day prior to going to sleep. There is a lot written about this on the forums. 

16 days my guys! thats 16 days! 1 times 16! See yall tommarrow at 17! (cant wait for 20 that will be exciting!

Human being wrote on 18 Jan 2022 19:13:

Awesome! Thanks for posting! 

Shtarkandemotional wrote on 18 Jan 2022 19:14:

your profile pic can be extremely triggering - in many ways

17 days Yo's!......................18..........................19..........................20!!!!!!!.................................10000

Trouble wrote on 18 Jan 2022 19:29:

thank you!

Chai chai chai #18#18#18#18#18#18#18#18#18#18#18#18#18#18#18#18#18#18

.............19.............20!!!!!..........90!!!!!!!.....33,333!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am having a harder time today.

A couple of times my body reacted to thoughts and feelings (belashon naki)

but I didn't slip Bh but i do feel a lot more pressure to masturbate today. its hard. but I'm not going to.

Its weird but I almost feel like I'm being mean to myself. I guess sometimes that's what Hashem wants me to do. To deny myself a relief and be "mean" to myself.

Let's rephrase 
... feel like I'm being mean to my yetzer hora. I guess sometimes that's what Hashem wants me to do. To deny myself a relief and be "mean" to my yetzer hora and kind to myself.

(IMHO)