I had a really hard night last. I texted 'Hashem Help Me' at 12:30 AM around, but he was already sleeping. I was in the middle of masturbating at 5:30 in the morning when miraculously he texted me back, "Survived the night, buddy?" I was literally a couple of minutes away from falling. I answered him because A) I owe him for caring and
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I'm committed. I don't know if I'm going to make it to 90 days or even 30 days or even to the end of this week. But, I'm committed now. I always text him or call and I will continue to do so. I just wanted to get on here and thank him for saving me last night and all the other times that he saved me and for all the times in the future when he will save me.
By the way, I'm on my ninth clean day.