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Re: Square one 08 Apr 2021 19:48 #366554

Acted out twice today. Didn't look at porn or nudity(first time in a while) but wasn't much better then that.
Still trying to adjust the settings on the new filter to the correct settings.

Re: Square one 09 Apr 2021 05:00 #366571

Woke up frustrated and tired today. Went to the bathroom and almost acted out on impulse

Re: Square one 09 Apr 2021 20:23 #366602

Cmon you got this! See if you can make it to motzei shabbos without acting out - dont worry what happens after that. Seriously don't. For sure No heter to act out after that but j don't worry about it
Think about how good you'll feel if you say no to desire and compare that to how bad you'll feel if you say yes.

Desire is unique in the way that it is never fulfilled -  if you give in the desire comes back even more powerful in just a few days. Telling yourself that its ok because this is really the last time doesn't work because you are just adding new images to your head that will cause future falls.

The Joy of triumph over the yetzer hara is worth the effort it takes to win. It IS worth it! Keep fighting!


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Re: Square one 10 Apr 2021 21:59 #366618

Day 2
BH I'm clean 
Looking forward to being busy with Zman. I think I've had a few days where I didn't realise how much free time alone I would have
Does anyone know when gye 2.0 is being launched?

Re: Square one 11 Apr 2021 20:06 #366674

Day 3 
BH today was clean
Wasn't in a good mood for some of today, dealing with yeshiva stuff for this zman
Last Edit: 11 Apr 2021 20:07 by Looking_to_improve.

Re: Square one 12 Apr 2021 20:13 #366730

Day 4
bh clean

Re: Square one 13 Apr 2021 20:36 #366780

Day 5
BH today was clean

Re: Square one 13 Apr 2021 21:23 #366784

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Re: Square one 14 Apr 2021 20:21 #366829

Day 6
BH clean

Re: Square one 14 Apr 2021 22:20 #366836

Just spent some time trying to search for bad pictures. I can see that my new filter is very good at blocking porn, but a bit worse at blocking things that are less extreme, but still bad. I think I need to adjust the settings a bit.

Going to sleep now

Re: Square one 14 Apr 2021 23:45 #366840

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Happy to hear it's working for you.
Keep us updated with how it goes.

Wishing you much success

One who has given up hope is without a G‑d.

One who sees hope in each day is already free

Re: Square one 15 Apr 2021 06:57 #366861

Also searched for some stuff this morning as well. I haven't masturbated, but feel like I might end up doing it today

Re: Square one 15 Apr 2021 11:54 #366865

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Re: Square one 15 Apr 2021 12:36 #366873

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Great job for posting hear.
If you'd like to, I'd suggest calling someone. (You have my number). This is not primarily a tactic that just postpones the inevitable. It is to get someone else involved in what's going on so we don't obsess, we can talk it over. I find that it helps.

Re: Square one 15 Apr 2021 22:02 #366906

I masturbated earlier this evening. 
Not feeling so down right now, but do have a bit of a feeling of being fed up, I don't feel like I'm capable of being clean for more than a week or two right now, I keep on falling at the first hurdle. I haven't made any progress in a while
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