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Re: Square one 11 Mar 2021 18:12 #365249

Not in a great mood, and not feeling great either. Could do with an escape

Re: Square one 11 Mar 2021 19:37 #365257

Forced myself to go for to half of night seder, but my brains a bit fried now. Couldn't focus while my chavrusa was reading and was only thinking of one thing...
I'm in for a tough night...

Re: Square one 11 Mar 2021 23:26 #365274

Day 11

BH I think I'm in the clear now. Had to do laundry and some sorting for bein hazmanim. Then I had a very good and constructive conversation with a Rebbe, on something that's been bothering me.

Re: Square one 12 Mar 2021 13:50 #365298

Day 12
BH today was good
Have a great shabbos everyone!

Re: Square one 13 Mar 2021 19:56 #365316

BH shabbos was good.
I'm staying with a friend for a few days, potentially might have unfiltered devices, I'm gonna speak to him to try find a solution.
Also may have just found a loophole with my filter, but I'm not going to check it. If anyone is a techie and knows about Android please let me know, I have general about filters, thanks.

Re: Square one 13 Mar 2021 20:09 #365317

I've just emailed TAG Israel, I'll let you all know when they get back to me

Re: Square one 14 Mar 2021 02:32 #365336

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Looking_to_improve wrote on 13 Mar 2021 19:56:
BH shabbos was good.
I'm staying with a friend for a few days, potentially might have unfiltered devices, I'm gonna speak to him to try find a solution.
Also may have just found a loophole with my filter, but I'm not going to check it. If anyone is a techie and knows about Android please let me know, I have general about filters, thanks.

Please feel free to reach out to me by email or PM, I will try to help.
My email address is: growinghigher613@gmail.com

Re: Square one 14 Mar 2021 08:43 #365345

Acted out last night and this morning

Re: Square one 14 Mar 2021 14:20 #365350

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Looking_to_improve wrote on 14 Mar 2021 08:43:
Acted out last night and this morning

Sorry to hear that. As long as you are going to chase your filter, trying to patch up everything possible...which will never happen, I'm afraid you will be running in circles. You are searching for the perfect bandaid...

Re: Square one 14 Mar 2021 14:42 #365351

Grant400 wrote on 14 Mar 2021 14:20:

Looking_to_improve wrote on 14 Mar 2021 08:43:
Acted out last night and this morning

Sorry to hear that. As long as you are going to chase your filter, trying to patch up everything possible...which will never happen, I'm afraid you will be running in circles. You are searching for the perfect bandaid...

I know, but it's frustrating because I wasn't looking for a loophole, but ended up finding one anyway. 
I don't know what a healthy balance is, because I can't have access to these things, but I also can't try patch every last thing. What do I do?

Re: Square one 14 Mar 2021 22:26 #365385

Day 0 back here again. Really thought I was gonna go a month clean.
Like Grant said, I feel like I'm going in circles. Feeling disappointed in myself. Felt embarrassed to stand before Hashem during maariv tonight

BH there's no issues with unfiltered devices. But still sorting out my own one. Tag referred me to netspark, who I haven't always found useful. I'm looking into switching to gentech of they can solve the problems I'm having.

Re: Square one 14 Mar 2021 23:55 #365390

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Looking_to_improve wrote on 14 Mar 2021 22:26:
Day 0 back here again. Really thought I was gonna go a month clean.
Like Grant said, I feel like I'm going in circles. Feeling disappointed in myself. Felt embarrassed to stand before Hashem during maariv tonight

BH there's no issues with unfiltered devices. But still sorting out my own one. Tag referred me to netspark, who I haven't always found useful. I'm looking into switching to gentech of they can solve the problems I'm having.

try techloq

Re: Square one 15 Mar 2021 05:49 #365404

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I highly recommend techloq,although I would refer to R Grant's post as well.

Re: Square one 15 Mar 2021 06:00 #365406

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Techloq is for Windows devices only. LTI has an Android
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Re: Square one 15 Mar 2021 21:11 #365438

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Looking_to_improve wrote on 14 Mar 2021 14:42:

Grant400 wrote on 14 Mar 2021 14:20:

Looking_to_improve wrote on 14 Mar 2021 08:43:
Acted out last night and this morning

Sorry to hear that. As long as you are going to chase your filter, trying to patch up everything possible...which will never happen, I'm afraid you will be running in circles. You are searching for the perfect bandaid...

I know, but it's frustrating because I wasn't looking for a loophole, but ended up finding one anyway. 
I don't know what a healthy balance is, because I can't have access to these things, but I also can't try patch every last thing. What do I do?

I believe you already know and have known for a while, the answer to that question. Orchestrating ones surroundings to fit his preferences will never work. All one can do is to learn how to live with his surroundings. 
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